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The big decision

2012-02-12T13:50:00.000+08:00

I never ever dreamt this would ver happen in my life..

It's such a long story... My dad is thinking of moving to Indonesia as he might want to work there in a Christian school and do what he likes to do the last of his working years.. I can't accept it. I just can't. It's just out of my mind! He said either I follow them to an Indonesian university or be left all alone in Singapore to complete my studies. I can't imagine life all alone! My sis and mum will either stay with me or go with my dad. But frankly, I'd rather them go with my dad and take care of him vos it's a whole new place over there.. But I really can't believe this is happening to me.. Thinking about spending my life in a hostel without my family, without weekly family lunches and dinners, no more meals together, just makes me feel so sad and I help but cry whenever I think about this topic!

My dad said if it's God's will he will go and bring my sis and mum along where my sis will probably go to an international school. But God, I know this is bad but I can't surrender my family :( I have always pitied my friends whose dad travels so often, whose parents live in another country from them and bow if u go, I won't be any different. This is not a question about independence but tr issue of loneliness. I already always feel so lonely now and without my family I would be even worst! I know I musnt keep thinking about myself and the family in general but my dad who has sacrificed so much for us... but not this way please? I really hate to see myself part from my family or even stay away from them.. I really don't want it God.. Up till now, I just can't bring myself to accept it even if it is your will, I know I'm supposed to accept it but I just can't.. But god if it really is your will, help me to accept it.. :(

Dad says he may even leave with kris and mum this august :( this is too sudden srsly! I feel so depressed just thinking about it I can't even concentrate on my work and my stuff!!!

2012

2012-01-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day of school..
It had been so tiring and I've been slping at 3-4am everynight before today as I was studying for Chem and Bio tests! Anyway, thank God I'm done with the long Bio test and I really think my school's retarded to have a full bio paper (2.5hours), testing on the whole J1 syllabus, on the first day of school!! Have a Chem test this Friday too! sighh oh well but I finished studying my first round (: Need to practise more questions though!

Just some updates.. (:
Had CG outing, or rather CG dinner last sat and I think it was great! Well, a great start (: we celebrated Amanda's birthday and haha went to daiso to shop! Looking forward to more bonding time with my CG! (:

Actually, I'm quite excited for school.. omg I'm saying it... but yeah, I really want to start and end and journey this year rightly! So yeah! And besides, haha I like homework! (: haha okayy...

Thanksgiving

2012-01-02T13:14:00.000+08:00

Haha usually I do this at the end of the previous year but yeah, haha I'm late this year :P
Yup anyway I really want to thank God for everything He had done in my life a d for the amazing people He put in my life too :) last year, 2011, has been an eventful year.. A year full of adaptations to make, year full of ups and downs, a challenging year to summarize it. But nevertheless, I thank God for helping me survive th year!

Really want to thank God for my family. Though last year was about the year which has the most family conflicts and problems.. I'm thankful that haha last year has past an I hope that this year would be a better year.. Thank God for my family which supported me always and thank God for the family time we had together, and that includes going overseas together at the end of last year! It was a wonderful trip especially that we could serve Hod together in care corner orphanage foundation :)

Next, wanna thank some very important friends in my life..

I thank God for Joanne, firstly I thank God for helping her go through a smooth pregnancy and next for holding her close grouch all the painful moments and for being with her throughout.. I'm so thankful for knowing her and for having the chance to be her BRP and good friend :) I thank God for a wonderful mentor!

Next, I thank God for Sabrina and Joyce too for being sub great friends and mentors too! I hope they don't leave the youth ministry though! :/

Thank God for Alicia, my best friend in school.. Though this year was a year full of conflicts between us, but I thank God that these conflicts have somehow brought us closer :) and I thank God too that I managed to tell her more abput you and I pray that ou will continue to change her and touch her :) thanks for always putting us together :) same sec sch, same cca, same JC :) I pray for an even better friendship and that we will be able to support each other through this tough year! :)

Thank God for my class, CG 25/11. Though I'm not so close to anyone of them, but I thank God for putting me in such a GUAI class in which very teacher says is the most well-behaved class ever :) I pray God that you will use me in this class as out of 25, only 3 are Christians and the rest are non-believers.. I pray you will use me to tell them about You :) but first of all, help me to love them too :) as loving others = loving You :)

Thank God for my CCA, soccer. This year was a really tough year for us.. Being on the verge of closing down, people quitting becos they think training is too tough.. But nevertheless, I thank God so much for keeping us together and for bringing in new people to join our team :) I pray that you will strengthen all of us, especially our captain Brenda! And help us to have good attitudes when we play and train!!

Lastly, I thank God for being in my youth ministry.. It has been so encouraging to see more people coming to know you.. :) and I pray that Lord you will continue to fill, touch and strengthen them when they are weak :) help them to know that you are always here for them and that life is not going to be easier when they accept you as their saviour but life is more meaningful as they have You beside them helping them and supporting them :) I pray You continue to work in the ministry and bring all of us to a whole new level :) to spread the love you showed us to our friends :)

This year is gonna be tough but I'm not fretting cos I have You with me! :D and I'm glad that I'm not worrying now like how I used to every year! Why! Becos I know I just need to dou best and leave the rest to you now! I'm drillin this in my head! :P

Chiang Mai - Bangkok trip 2011

2011-12-27T20:47:00.001+08:00

It was definitely a fruitful trip! And here's it sumarised (:

Day One
We took a straight flight to ChiangMai! The weather over there was cold and lovely! Pastor Ricky picked us straight from the airport to Care Corner Orphanage Foundation (: It was cool cos I came to this orphanage to serve in Jan earlier this year (:

Day Two
The breakfast was awesome! SPICY PASTA! And right now I'm totally craving for it! :p Headed to Makro to shop for art and craft stuff in which we would be using to teach the kids in the orphanage the next day! We practised and 'rehersed' the making of the crafts as a family. We played and interacted with the kids and After dinner, it was night service! My sis and I lead the worship (: It was cool and seeing them learn the actions of the praise songs so happily and readily! (: And then we rehersed their performance of candlelight christmas skit (: Thankfully my favourite kid, Bam still remembered me in the end! Spent the rest of the night with the kids abd watching them draw. Many even gave me their drawings as presents! So sweet! (:

Pastor Ricky brought us for supper BEEF NOODLES!SO YUMMY!

Day Three
Art and crafts day! We spent the morning teaching the kids art and craft which could decorate their orphanage compound for Christmas! And the end product was simply PRETTY! Seeing the kids so pleased and elated with their art work really made me feel so happy too (:

Later in the afternoon, we went for elephant riding. I VOW NEVER TO RIDE AN ELEPHANT ANYMORE! D: The elephants were like 'tortured'! They had to walk and balance through very narrow paths and narrow walkways! I really pity them so much ): poor ellies ):

After elephant riding, we went for bamboo rafting! Oh that was COOL! The water was freezing cold! And we sat on bamboos which took us through a rocky river! It was really a great experience (:

In the night, Pastor Ricky's children, Jerrie and Jacinth headed to the cultural walking street with my family! It was again an unending street! Just like when I came in Jan earlier this year! :p I bought handmade notebooks for my friends' christmas presents and a piano painting for myself! (: We went for supper DUCK NOODLES AND TAU HUI! YUM (:

Day Four
After breakfast, we headed to the tallest Mountain in Thailand, Doi Intanon! This mountain is so beautiful!! Simply in love with it! We had lunch there and went mountain trekking for 2 hours plus plus! IT WAS SO TIRING but fun!! My favourite and most memorable place in this mountain is the meadows in the clouds! It's so heavenly! Seriously! I've never been to such a beautiful and heavenly place! Unforgettable much! (:

After that we went to a waterfall which was HUGE! The biggest waterfall i've seen so far in my life! The water wass just splashing out freely of the plunge pool! COOL!

After dinner back in the orphanage (last dinner) );, we made our last goodbye to the kids and headed to Maninakorn hotel in the city centre of Chaingmai. I cried when I had to leave the kids.. they are all so adorable.. gonna miss all of them especially Bam and Nung, my 2 favourite girls, and Wi and Sally, my 2 cute boys! I wish for all of them to live healthily and happily.. God bless all of them!

We went to the night bazaar in the night after dinner im a Chinese restaurent!

Day Five
We went to a local market which was quite cool! We bought shampoo and other toiletries hahaha! Then we went to the night bazaar (: Yup, that's actually about it (:

Day Six
We went to a cooking school called, Baan Thai, it was cool! The chefs brought us to the market to show us around and the ingredients used in Thai food! (: Thai cooking is fun! Basically with the ingredients, sugar, fish sauce, CHILLI! I cooked four dishes, Phad Thai, Tom Yum Kung, Spring Roll and Thai Curry Noodles! It was cool cooking and making new friends from around the world while cooking together (:

Day Seven onwards
We headed to Bangkok! Actually I'm not really gonna post about bangkok cos almost all we did was shopping! Except that we went to Jim Thompson musuem (: Sadly, I fell sick on one of the days but was well soon after (:

It was a great trip and family bonding time! The board games and chips made it better though! (:

Merry Christmas!!!

Life

2011-12-11T14:24:00.000+08:00

I really wish for a female figure in my life who truly understands me. Actually not any other female figure. But a mother who genuinely cares. It has been so long, but she doesn't understand my sis and I at all! She thinks we like others over her, she thinks we are not helping her genuinely and instead creating chaos, she thinks her life is so hard cos no one wants to help her when we all actually want to. I don't understand! Why does she always think so illly of my sis and I! It feels like there's no one I can turn to in my family.. Well, everyone thinks my family is perfect, it's great, a happy family. Well ive been trying to convince myself that it is! But no! I can't! It's not a happy family! It's a mere facade!!! It's all FAKE!

I don't know you anymore mummy. I wish I can stay away from you for a while and so I can give u and myself to think abt why u are doing this and how I shld face u. Though sometimes you are not scolding me but u are scolding Kristel, it hurts okay! It hurts to see the family atmosphere being so so sucky becos of u being angry at suer trivial things and scolding and beating everyone. I just don't like it.

It's not like me to say this but, I really wish I can get married soon and I'm sure I won't do this to my child...

Coming to the end of 1st yr

2011-11-15T11:48:00.000+08:00

PW has ended and so has promos...

PW totally is my favourite! :) missing PW already.. :P

My results for promotional exams really suck.. :( and it really makes me wonder if im really stupid or not.. I studied so so hard for it! Slping at 2am and waking at 4am to revise in case I forget the info.everything just gone right down the drain.. Am I stupid?

Really starting to consider if medicine is the path I want to go. Whether it is the path that is suitable for me.. Should I stop dreaming? Do I still stand a chance? Do I want to work so hard? Im just starting to really question myself.. Sigh. Thinking of alternatives though :/ recently, I went for a medical immersion camp at nanyang poly and it was so interesting! It kinda made me still wanna go into medicine... :( haha oh well.

I feel my Christian life is kind of stagnant. I don't know exactly why.. I'm just really frustrated with this fact. It's like everyone is growing, everyone is experiencing more from God, receiving more from Him, continually getting blessed from Him... But I'm not. I just feel upset and I wonder why.. I don't like it when im always lagging. Well it seems like I'm always lagging in everything! Am I that of a loser? I mean, I'm glad to see many of my friends in church growing. It's good! It really is! But I just feel.. Sad that I'm not really growing although I really do want to. I don't know but I'm starting to enter the feeling of doubt. I wonder if God really hears my prayers. I wonder if He really sees me. When I worship him, sometimes I wonder why I'm clapping hands during praise songs and why I'm lifting my hands up during worship songs. Like why must I or do I or do ppl do that.. Just feel really disillusionised now..

Soccer. I hate my shin, ankle, leg or whatever. I have getting Injured. I want to play in the coming matches but how am I to play with a sprained ankle! What's wrong with me seriously!! :( just really angry with myself! I wanna be a guy on the field. But why do I appear to be like a gymnast on the field!!!?? I hate it. I hate myself for that.

Anyway, right now I've got to study really hard do I won't lag in school or anything.

back to St Nicks!

2011-09-01T19:52:00.000+08:00

Happy Teachers' Day!
Jolene, Huai Tian, Yuan Ting, Melissa and I went back to st nicks! Although we didn't manage to meet any of our teachers, we had good bonding time together! Miss those wonderful times!
Thanks for the memories!~

topsy turvy

2011-07-04T17:09:00.002+08:00

Well, Life... Just two words to describe it -- topsy turvy. And since I know no one reads my blog now, I shall just say what I really feel like saying. (To an extent)

My life now, is really tough. Okay I never expected that JC life would be so tough! Secondary school life was already a killer.. And now, JC... JUST KILL ME! CCA, school work, Project Work, Tests, CTs, meeting expectations, nonsense... all take up SO MUCH of my time. School has never ended so late before.. school had never felt so tiring before and I have NEVER dreaded school this much!! Everything just changed. Everyone changed too.

School workload is so much! It's just overwhelming.. But okay, maybe I've been lazy.. I didn't revise everyday's work like everyday. sigh I guess that's my aim and my vow to try to revise everyday's lessons by that single day.. I suppose it will really help me in my understanding and hw.. sigh. Life is tough, living is even harder.

CCA, soccer, is super fun! And it is no doubt at all that I LOVE soccer! However, something just seems wrong in my soccer team. I don't know but there's just something. Maybe Mr Lee's right... there's no JOY in the team.. as in everyone's so sad. I guess that's true. Especially after EXCO positions came out. The atmosphere just SUCKS! BUt oh well, I believe when everyone tries, things will gradually get better... OH MAN and guess what... I'm a QM AGAIN!!! D: GAHHAHA. LIAZRD INFESTED STOREROOM HERE I COME D: *cringe* ewwww.. hahah but OH WELL. (:

Friends.. well that is something I really start to question when I enter JC. I'm really thankful though that Alicia is in the same school as me and we are in the same CCA! But.. I just feel that something's lacking between us now. I don't know but I feel quite sad about it. ):
My classmates, is not how it used to be in sec school! It just feels that everyone is so fake and I can't seem to rely and really trust anyone! No one seems to be really interested in what anyone's going through and no one seems to CARE A SINGLE BIT for anyone. okay maybe a teeny weeny bit. I don't know but this really sucks! I really hope my friends in class will bond more and get closer... ): It has already been half a year.. time flies.. but I feel that my relationship with my friends are getting further apart and more distant and things aren't really going right.. I really miss Secondary school... TO BITS!! D: Can't I just retain.. seriously...

Everyone is so competitive, everyone is SO smart in TJC. It sucks when you are dumb and I just feel that I am so. But oh well.. I'm trying to be smart. haha

TOOP, some overseas outreach programme I'm in. I feel it's really rather demanding.. the teachers keep scolding us every session... and sometimes I really wonder if joining it is the right choice... but well I believe at the final destination, I would feel it is (: Just trying to press on... and I just hope for now that I won't get kicked out due to academic requirements..

JC life.. frankly speaking, I don't enjoy it. CCA is about the only thing I look forward to. (I think) And this is the only phase in my life so far that I'm DREADING school so much... ): the loneliness, sadness, stress, helplessness is just too overwhelming and strangling. You can't understand... and the guys are annoying.

JCTs are just over and I know for sure, I can't slack a single bit when the term reopens. Infact, I have to work even harder than before as things are just going to be harder each day and I just have to learn to cope with it. Sigh..

God, I pray that You strengthen me both mentally and physically. I really pray for SUPERNATURAL strength...

JCTs:

They were a killer.

GP: OKay I can't say much about this as I don't really have any idea how this is going to be marked.. but essay was fun I guess.. (:

Geog: which was after GP on the same day was TIRING! Brain was fried TOTALLY! Fell sick during the paper and this sucked! Really felt so sucky after this paper as I studied SO EXTREMELY HARD for Geog like I studied 3 TIMES THOROUGHLY! But the essay part was just SCREWED TTM!!! OH well, this is life, isn't it?

Chem: One word -- FAILURE. YES IT'S A TOTAL FAIL PAPER! Everyone was stunned after the paper. anw, I don't expect anything from this paper.. not even a pass or a sub-pass. MY CHEM SUCKS YOU SEE! D:

Biology: This paper was really fun I'd say! (: At least I enjoyed doing the paper (: And I could understand all of the questions and at least a rough gist to answering them. (: studied so hard for this paper too...

Math: I was really freaking out totally the day before as I had never felt so under-prepared for this paper in my whole life! Math was something I had never really worried about but now... OMG. But the paper was quite fun (: and yeah I felt I enjoyed doing the paper too (: haha oh well, i'll just wait and see my results.

SERIOUSLY, I have NO IDEA AT ALL about what my results wil turn out to be! (except chem, sure U grade) This is my first exam in JC and woah it was a killer in general. I wonder what the next few exams will be like. And I wonder also what is the use of setting such a tough paper in which NO ONE knows how to do. It's like pointless isn't it!? It only brings down a person's self-esteem! What to do... WELCOME TO TJC.

I pray for a good term! At least a good start please! TERM 3!! Here I come (tomorrow) :/ schhhhhhh ):

when stress kicks in

2011-04-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

my blog is kind of dead. lol.

I really have to emphasise a lot that JC life is CRAZY. Really crazy. I'm getting really stressed about the content and depth of the subjects.. life isn't easy AT ALL! ): sighh...

But well, I look forward to meeting Alicia in the mornings and after school before trainings and SOCCER! Love these times. I really miss my secondary school friends and their company, their presence.. I miss them so much and I can't wait to go back to St Nicks... seriously..

Sometimes, I feel quite lonely in JC. Like in class... I don't know why.. it's not that I have no friends or anything but it's just that feeling... ): sighh..

PW is getting so hectic. PI So are the other subjects and CCAsssss. Chamber and soccer. sighh. Can't wait for SYF to be over. srsly. Chemistry is so hard!!! ):

I hope I will be able to copeee!!! ><

HATE APRIL's FOOL DAY

2011-04-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

WAH WANT TO KILL BRENDA... so want to kill her.

BIOLOGY teacher too... make me worry for nothing..!!!!

Competition Season begins..

2011-03-28T22:38:00.001+08:00

wow. Almost one month of not posting... lol. BUSYYYY D:

Sports and performing arts are going through the competition season now.. and I'm in BOTH and so, it really sucks to be so busy and so tired out everyday!!

Soccer competition begins on this Wednesday and it's against MI (my dad's school) and the worst thing is that daddy wants to watch the match!! NOOOO D: Extra stress.. :/

I NEED TO GET WELL BY WED! I'm currently quite sick since tues and this sucks as I can't train properly.. ): omg pray pray pray.....

Chamber Ensemble's SYF is on 28 April.. lots of practice... till 8.30pm!!!!! But thankfully, the chamber ensemble teachers are very nice and understanding of the fact that im in 2 CCAs.

Sian JC life kind of sucks.. so busy and hectic and tiring... and the worst thing is when I can't understand stuff and this is the super stressful part! urghhhh! D:

I hope TJ soccer can win many matches!! (:

trainings after trainings

2011-03-07T18:12:00.000+08:00

CCAs are so hectic! Mon, Tues, Wed, Fri! Thursday have GP tuition, Sun have Math. Sat whole day in church! My life is busy much.

But soccer trainings are fun but tiring. But omg what to do!! I'm scared of it!! AHHH!

For chamber ensemble, I'm the sectional leader and it's weird. the whole section is not very prepared!! I'm worried. SYF is coming already!!! ):

Workload is building up and so are my eyebags.

Match against NJ on WED! TJ MUST WIN!

JC life

2011-02-24T18:40:00.000+08:00

I am so busy!!! Evidence: unfrequent blogging.

JC life is so different from Secondary school life! And frankly speaking, I prefer sec sch life.. classroom lessons rock mann! We have to run from leture theatres to tutorial venues, vice versa. And school ends so late everyday! CCA four times a week. omg, this is so tiring.. Tutorials plus revision plus MORE! Overloaded!!!!

The road run was finally cancelled due to bad weather for the 2nd time! WHEE! Maybe it's really God's will for me to not run! (: YAY. HAHA.

hehe Love my school shoes.. (: and my Golden soccer boots and yellow socks! LOL... :P

Yeah, and I'm so happy i'm in soccer because I LOVE soccer!!! And it's around competition season so training is 3 times a week, however, I have CHAMBER ENSEMBLE on Tues and Fri ): ): ): so some of my fridays go to Chamber.. D: But I don't care, im skipping chamber this friday for a soccer match in Andrew and Grace Girls' home!!

Seriously, I was thinking if joining chamber ensemble as my 2nd PDP was the right choice.. I didn't really enjoy myself the first session. There are only 4 Singaporeans in the CCA (J2s level) and the rest are from China.. so the whole CCA is very very Chinese - national based. Everyone speaks Chinese D: gosh. The people weren't very friendly either... ): But I guess for the sake of syf and portfolio, I will stay on..): AND quit IMMIDIATELY after SYF. Can't wait for that day. srsly.

Was thinking of joining Cheerleading but I don't think I will be able to cope with so many activities. But I really want to join Temasek's Overseas Outreach Programme!!! I think it will really help me if I want to become a Paediatrician!!! But it's another big commitment. As meetings are once a week till a very long time.. but I really want to since I know it will help me!!! (:

I don't understand CHEM. Like seriously. I'm searching very hard for Chem tutors and currently, I got my senior who just finished her Alevels to help me.. sigh I'm so stressed about Chem... ):

But the other subjects are nice (: Like Bio and Geog and MATH! Love them all!!! Oh and my Bio teachers rock!!! hahahah. All the Biology teachers are super lame and cute!!! (:

okay off to bathe and complete tutorials and revise lectures! HATE CHEM.

Going out for dinner with Jolene and Huai Tian tomorrow! I'm so excited! Miss Jolene so much!! (:

A TJCian's updates

2011-02-16T00:09:00.000+08:00

Well, I'm really getting really busy.. and school in JC is always ending so late!

Some updates...

I will be joining Soccer and Chamber Ensemble! Which means, I have to go for CCA 4 times a week! omg. stress. Well, I'm going to survive it! I have to!!! (:

but I felt cheated for dance... because of something... aiya haha I DONT WANNA JOIN ALR.. LOL. dad didn't want me to go swimming and OAC. So yeah SOCCER HERE I COME!! LOL... (:

There already seems to be cliques in my class... like the more out-spoken ones have formed a clique.. but I still like my CG. they are simply AWESOME. (;

Running competitively for TJ Road Run on Friday and tomorrow is a trial rnu for the people in Green house. I'm in Blue house (alpha) but I'm running for green (delta), because it's my clan, Kaezer! lol :p and in Kaezer, there are only 11 J1s in the whole cohort running!!! This is scary. :/

Today, during PE, we had a 2.8km road run! It was so fun! And I loved it! HAHAHA. fun fun fun... (: I want more of these mann!! (: COOL TTM!

Also, today, after my last lecture, I went back to St Nicks with Alicia Choo, and we met Sixuan and Sharon (both my classmates in SN) WONDERFUL! And I managed to chat with Lilan laoshi(my FT), Hu laoshi, Ms Quek, Mrs Chan, Ms Jane Foo, etc. I really miss all of them and I really miss St nicks so much.. I really wish I can come back everyday!! ST nicks is the best school ever! (: love it ttm <3

Then, Alicia and I headed to J8. I bought a schedule bk from ARTBOX and we went to Bishan Library to study!

Can't wait for soccer and road run trainings tmr!!! Geog, Math and Chem lectures tmr.. I think.. oh and Civics and Contact Time... (: I like lectures... (: quite fun la. But Math is confusing... because of the funny big and bulky graphic calculator.

Orientation ENDS

2011-02-10T21:06:00.000+08:00

Orientation has ended and somehow, I have mixed feelings about it. I'm happy it's over as I hate cheeringgg!!! D: Hate it ttm!!! But what I will miss about orientation are mainly my OGLs.. they are all so nice!! I will miss Shazana, Deryn, KaiXin, Yannis, Dylan, Jordan, BingLun and Lim Pin!! Really all the best to all of you!!

Well, we are finally in our Civics groups already and tomorrow we'll be knowing our Civics tutor.. I LOVE MY CG! We are all so bonded! I bet we are the most bonded CG ever! LOL.. but i'm serious!! Made many new friends too! (: Lectures havent officially started, with the exception of Geog. Geog is like super on la! HAHA. Tmr is CG bnoding day and I'm really wondering what we are going to do! CG 25/11 ROCKS! (: teehee. 20 girls, 5 boys! WHOOHOO! total girl power! (:

Unfortunately, I have been really quite sick these few days. Down with high fever, flu, very bad cough, throat infection, headaches and dehydration ): sad.

Choosing PDPs (aka CCAs) is another big decision in which I am in a dilemma. Modern dance? Football? Touch Rugby? Cross Ctry? Swimming and Waterpolo? I don't know!!! oh and chamber ensemble.. but that's confirmed. Sian.. went for touch rugby trials today though, but was sick so I felt slightly sick anyway.

I hope I get well very soon!!

CNY 2011

2011-02-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

Had reunion dinner with my cousins and my granny at Crystal Jade Dining In at VIVO. And my family took a cool walk at Sentosa boardwalk!

1st Day of CNY: Went to my cousin's house which was right beside mine. Like the next block! (: Played a bit and then they came over to my house! For CNY lunch! Which was a ten-course lunch! LOL like srsly! Played cluedo etcetc!
Then we went to my dad's side eldest sis house! Helped Minwei mark her work (cos she's a teacher) marked Geog! (: and then chatted with Minxianny!

2nd day of CNY: stayed at home whole day! It was a family day cum movie marathon day! I LOVE MIO TV! LOL..

3rd Day of CNY : went to cousin's house early in the morning and then headed to church for worship prac. After youth service, I went to Sabrina's and Caleb's house for cool dinner and Juliana was there too! We played some game with Polka cards. It's quite fun (: Thankd Caleb and Sabrina! FOR EVERYTHING! And later, they came to my house!! HAHA. (: had a great day! (:

I haven't been posting much lately as I'm quite busy with school Orientation.. Well, I must say, I made more friends! And orientation has became more fun.. (: LOVE MY OGLs a lot a lot! well and i love mass dance! (: All the TJC mass dances rock mann! And we're going to Suntec to perform our mass dance on Monday! LOL. see you there.

I just realised I havent eaten Bakwa since the start of CNY. LOL LOL

posting day

2011-01-26T16:14:00.000+08:00

Well I couldn't sleep the night before and i only managed to fall asleep at 2 plus am..

I woke up at 6 plus am. And at 6.401am, the deadly message came in.. posting results... I got into Temasek Arts. Well actually I already kind of knew it last night as there was a rumour that if you could log in to the TJ portal, means you're in. And I could and I saw ARTSSSSS stream. I'm dead.

I went to TJC and then VJC.

I'm quite glad in a sense that 2 of my best friends in school got into Temasek too! Alicia Choo an Janice Chua! And I'm glad that Melberly and Alicia Ho got into NYJC together. At least, the clique is not totally dispersed.. (: but everyone's appealing out! Or rather appealing to another school! And so did I. Nevertheless, I still hope we will get into the same school. But at least we are for the next 2 days. Starting from tomorrow...

But I must say, I'm quite excited for school! I miss school! I miss my school uniform! I miss waking up at 6am and stuff! I love school! I miss homework! I miss the times mrs Koh gave us Math hw everyday and we just had to finish it in class on that day the hw was issued! It was so fun! AWESOMENESS!

Okay I would love to start packing... (:

I'm going to miss St Nicks so much. I miss classroom-based lessons, my friends in SNGS, crazy jolene who always sits somewhere near me and I don't know why we are always placed near each other when we are close friends, I'll miss those cool PE lessons with the Frisbee, miss the teachers in SNGS esp Lilan laoshi and Mrs Koh, Molly :p and Mrs Chan's funny litty stories, miss TKAM and Midsummer, miss secondary subjects, miss doing Math homework, miss St Nicks' famous orange bowl, miss canteen food in st nicks, miss the long draggy assemblies... and many many more..

I can't wait to see my Orientation group at 7pm!!! I hope i'm with Alicia and Janice! Or at least someone that I know!!!

TJ here I come. I shall embrace the vegetable cabbage world!

Thailand: Rayong, Koh Samet, Bangkok, Chiang Mai

2011-01-22T00:18:00.002+08:00

It is my first trip with my dad alone.. well, it was a great experience, I must say..

Day One
The plane journey was surprisingly, good. Okay I slept almost the whole journey la. heh. My dad's thai friends came to fetch us from the airport and we headed to Rayong it was a 2 hours plus drive.. Rayong is the East of Thailand and after checking into the hotel,my dads thai friends brought us for some really nice dinner, seafood, by the beach. The ambience was super nice.. (: then they brought us for ice-cream and I could barely eat! Then in the night, we walked in the night market! (:

Day Two
My dad's Thai friends picked us up early after breakfast to their school, Rayong Wittayakom School. The school is huge and I'm really surprised that it's a rule that everyone must cut short hair!? I sat in ther English class and Music class. Quite interesting... Toured around the school before having lunch at a Jap Restaurent in Laemtong Departmental store. Next, we went to a fruit farm and it's AWESOME! They drove us in a cool vehicle and plucked fruits for us along the way! The fruits were the best ever and there was even a fruit buffet, etc.. cool!

Day Three
We headed to Koh Samet in the morning. Took a long car ride to the ferry dock area and a boat which took 1 hour long to reach the island. The island was not as spectacular as we thought it would be. The beach was kind of short but the water was rather clear.. And our 'hotel' or rather cottage was super cool!!!
We swam and caught crabs.. (: heh fun. Had a night walk along the beach..

Day Four
No breakfast! As the hotel didn't provide any. :p I sat on the swing at the beach for 2 hours plus.. (: I love swings and it was so good to have some time by myself.. We took a speed boat back to the dock. And then a bus to Bangkok.. the journey was 3.5hours. not too bad.. buses are better than planes.(: Took a sky train and taxi and then walked to the hotel.. long journey because of the JAM and the taxi driver didn't know where the hotel was. o.o
Went to Platinum mall to shop and for dinner at a Jap Restaurant!

Day Five
Woke up later as I stayed up to watch horror movies. And thankfully I didn't have any nightmares.. (: Instead, I dreamt of playgrounds.. o.o lol. Went to Pratunum.. to SHOP! hee. :p and to Central world for lunch with Uncle Teo Song and some guy from India.. then we went to Platinum again and shopped till we dropped!!! ate at KFC for dinner!

Day Six
Went to The Grand Royal Palace for sight-seeing. Admission fee was rather expensive though.. as they need more money to maintain the palace which was entirely made up of REAL Gold which did cost a lot to maintain well. It was really hot.. Later, we went to a Gem Factory. And bought mummy a pendant! (: And headed to Chaptuchak market (weekend market). We ate Ajisen! SUPER CHEAP. A total of 3 bucks plus for 2 meals! 0.0 And bought some art stuff and cute stuffies.
Went for a dinner cruise and it was certainly a wonderful experience.. There was Thai/seafood sets served. However, the food wasn't very good.. but at least the experience and ambience that was indeed good. (:
Watched horror movies in the night again (: HAHAH.

Day Seven
Headed to Chiang Mai by plane. Only 1 hour plus journey (: we stayed at The Imperial Maeping Hotel in which everything was so expensive.. :/ Went out to the walking street in the evening. And the street was ENDLESS! There were so many shops! But mainly selling those ethnic stuff.. Interesting experience though (:

Day Eight
Early in the morning, at 7.30am, a van picked us to go to an activity called Jungle Flight It's like a forest activity full of zip-lines and abseiling.. COOL TTM!! The van journey was rather long.. and we joined 5 other Americans on our adventure.. lol. it was a thrilling experience in which we were so high up in the trees! 40m high! Above the canopy of the forest! And I must say, the view was amazing! and the trees were so cool!!! haha. Amazing time. (:
Went back and headed to Care Corner Orphange.
The children came back from school and we played with them. We even got to go to visit a HIV infected boy in the hospital and sat in the pick-up with 2 other orphanage children who were so cute!! >< A boy called Sally and a girl, Bamm. Both HIV positive. And I was shocked when I found out that the girl was 14! She looked like 7! But it is due to her medication.. poor girl.. Played with a group of children: Fon, Pimp, Naah and Som. ctching almost killed me. And they taughht me some other games.. (: It was definitely difficult to communicate with them but it was fun! Had dinner with Lona (a volunteer in the orphange) and Joanne, a Singaporean teacher who teaches English in a Thai school. Had worship. Worship was awesome. and I was so touched by how the children worshipped God, with all their hearts.. I really cried. After that, my dad taught them a bit of mathematics. Simple addition. and played a game. I think it was cool and all the children were so engaged! It was great to see them have fun! (:Day Nine
the last day. We had breakfast at Pastor Ricky's house, which was in the orphanage too. Pastor Ricky is in-charge of the orphanage..
Then, we went to a school which was right beside the orphanage and many of the orphans go there to study! We joined Lona's class, which was a English class. We sat through a class and my dad took over another class. It was fun and I think my dad's real cool! The class was great too! Made a few friends.. haha. Like Fern and Soita. Real cute. (:
We headed for lunch and then to the airport.. Back to Singapore in a approx 3 hr flight. The plane delayed though..

I'm going to miss Thailand. and especially, the orphans. I really really pray that God will allow their faith to rise and that they will always turn to God no matter what and that they will not give up hope about their illnesses. Be strong kids! I love you all.. (:

thanks daddy for the trip. It has been a wonderful experience...

and now, since I know which school I got in. I'm going to have to make decisions now. God, I pray that you give me wisdom..

Thailand..

2011-01-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

Off to Thailand in the morning tomorrow... ): Going to miss church, my friends, and my room... ): my mum and my sister too ): MISS SINGAPORE! I didn't come back to Singapore long enough! sighh

PLANE. D: well at least the plane rides in TOTAL sum up to about 6 hours there about. sighh.

I feel so worried about everything! I have never really felt so insecure and unprepared! I really need to commit everything to God and have faith that He'll take care of everything...

I'm still thinking what I can teach the kids in the orphange... (: hmmm.

okay... I will only be back on the night before school reopens ): which is on posting night, 26th Jan 2011. ): And by then, everyone will know their postings... nervous much... :/

decisions decisions decisions

2011-01-14T12:03:00.002+08:00

well I must say, I'm relieved afetr submitting my JAE thing. My choices are confirmed and they will not change... and I must thank my parents and a few people like Sabrina, for advising me about school choices...

Since so many people are applying for NJC, maybe I have better chances into VJC(: haha just thinking... but I must say I'm very very surprised that so many people in my level in St Nicks wants to put NJC as their first choice!

But the thing I'm not so for NJ is that the school rules are so strict! No ankle socks, no coloured shoes and socks, no fringe, no elastic thingy at your shirt!? And Ryan Sim Nick Jonas told me so many bad things about NJ. But I like the compound and the people and their WESTERN DANCE and well, the name. I perfectly don't mind going into a mugger school though! But NJ is very very inconvenient! I can't imagine having to jam all the way to school and back. But frankly, everyone's telling me to go NJ. But once again, I don't think I can get in anyway!

VJ please!!!! And ohh dance too!!!! NO strings please! I already rejected Vj's strings. SO Im going to be anti-strings!

oh and I don't know what's my problem. heee. I went to see the poly courses I am eligible for... whoo. everything! Including international business and molecular biology, vet and DENTISTRY!!! And I was kind of tempted... :p heh. esp for dentistry. heeee. but NONONO JC here I come. Im going to embrace the stress. I will survive.

and now, another worry... SUBJECT COMBINATIONS! I'm taking science stream and that's for sure. Math, Chem, BIO! and one arts subject. Geog? Econs? Music? Lit? I dunno!!! If I really get into TJ extra Music subject to worry about... Lit. is it a lot to read? Cos I don't like reading new stuff but I like analysing... Econs. Is it like SS? I hate SS! But it's so relevant and stuff. and furthermore, most people are taking it! sigh. Geog... I LOVE GEOG!!! but Physical geog. Is there more physical than Human geog? Is it a lot to memorise? Will it be a deadly path if take H2 Geog and H2 Biology? OH MANN SO MUCH TO WORRY! SO MUCH TO CONSIDER!

I'm going to get GP, Math, Chem tuition. That's for sure.

is A level really very hard to cope? but it's only 6 subjects!? Olevel is 10!

and suddenly, I found joy in tweeting. lol. random. :p

okay I'm going to trust God now. I'm just going to pray.. I also pray that Alicia and Janice will get into the same school as me!!!

Praying and trusting are the keys.. I'm going to trust that God will bring me where He wants me to go.

open houses

2011-01-11T18:46:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to go for JC open houses... though at first I wasn't interested in going at all. I went with Alicia... and it's going to be on going for the next 3 days...

I went to Nanyang JC's and Temasek's open houses today... Nanyang's compound is nice but it feels so cold. And I don't think I want to go there anyway... Temasek's better. Tthe people are nice but the school compound is old and the uniform is a little like.. heh... vegetables. :p but well, it's one of my choices.

Alicia came to my house after that. And we had red hair! lol..

Tomorrow, we are going to AJC and SAJC... and the following day, NJC... sigh... making choices are urgh sometimes... still have subject combi! I still dunno what arts subject I'm going to take... Geog? Music? Econs? Lit? SIGH! I don't know!!!!! ahhhhhh!!!!!!

olevel results

2011-01-10T17:47:00.000+08:00

Everyone was crying before they even got their results and it was an achievement that I didn't. Well, I covered my ears.

I have to say, I'm proud of my school. I'm certainly really proud of my batch, my level, the green badges. Well, top student in Singapore for three consecutive years... how wonderful. (: I thank God for that. And for how well my level did in general...

For me, I'm not too happy. I didn't get what I wanted. But after sitting and thinking for a while, I have to say I'm rather glad for some subjects... like Lit and Chem, I didn't expect to get A2 and Higher Chinese B3, when so many people got C6. I thank God for that. And for the A1s... and that nothing went below a B3.

But for two other subjects, I'm really disappointed. I feel that I have let my tutors down for these two subjects.

But overall, I can't help but say... I'm disappointed. I cried and still feel like crying. I think I scared Alicia when I cried... :/ haha sorry! Though now, I still feel like a loser.. one who studies so hard but can't reach my aim. I seriously, don't mind taking O-levels again.

I can get into VJC through my CCA but if I choose not to play for youth service! Which I am so reluctant because playing keyboard is my joy and it's the thing I really look forward to! It's one of my ways of worshipping God.. I really don't know... and I'm confused.

Okinawa and Taiwan!

2011-01-09T19:52:00.000+08:00

Day One
We arrived in Okinawa after 2 flights which transitted at Taipei and I must say... the plane journey was BLEH! TOTAL BLEH! I'm never going to sit 2 planes in a row... one after another D: But the weather was so cold and nice once we landed in the airport!
A few of My dad's japanese friends came to fetch us from the airport and brought us to a restaurant where we ate Traditional Okinawan Dinner! It was so delicious and it was cool because it was not something that we could ever find in Singapore or anywhere else! (:
We reached our hotel at around 10pm and we went swimming! (: We stayed in Laguna Hotel!!! Super nice!!! (:

Day Two
Early in the morning, after a super good Jap breakfast, a Japnese family, Mr and Mrs Minoru came to pick us up with the touragent person. We went to Manzo-mo... some really cliffy place which has cool wind and beautiful scenery where I could put my Geography knowledge into great use... (:
Then, we headed to the Pineapple park! :p and then for lunch! We had Yaki-Niku! BBQ meat!!!!! So yummy!
After that, we went to Churaumi Aquarium.. supposedly the largest Aquarium In Japan! Well, it was actually very nice and we got to see dolphin show! (:
And at night, we headed to a Japanese family's house where we home stayed in. The house was huge and it was cold too. haha.
We had some steamboat thing for dinner and yup, we talked with the Jap family and watched TV together! And we slept in their house too...

Day Three
Mr Minoru brought my sister and I to a japanese street market and departmental store... it was a great experience! And we saw so many cool stuff like the Taiko and Sansin!!!!! (:
Then my parents arrived at the house and we had early Traditional New Year meal together!!! It was cool... (: and we also tried on some Okinawan Traditional costumes!
Then, we headed to Daiwa Roynett Hotel and my sis and I shared a hotel room.. And we walked along the streets! It was so beautiful!

Day Four
We headed to Taiwan... We were staying in Taichung and in a hotel called HoneyDew Fashion Hotel. Well, the hotel was.... erm not very nice and it did look a bit creepy... we walked along the streets and bought a lot of stuff as stuff in Taichung was rather cheap!! We also went to Feng Jia Night Market in the evening! BUBBLE TEA ROCKS! (:

Day Five
We went to Sun Moon Lake early in the morning. And we stayed in this hotel called Laurel Villa... It was so nice and RuiJun's family stayed in the same hotel room as us before! HAHA. We went for a boat ride around the island... it was interesting. (: And the scenery was breath-taking.

Day Six
TIRING DAY! We left early in the morning by Taxi to Hualien and it was a whole day journey as HuaLien is really really far away. And actually, the journey there was very dangerous and not many people would dare to go by there... as it was a mountain journey and the roads were narrow and cars went both directions. Yup... we passed many places in Taiwan too and up the mountain we went. IT SNOWED! The temperature was so cold and we were certainly not prepared for snow! In terms of our clothes we wore. :p But SNOWWWWW so we were too happy as it seldom snowed and today was the heaviest ever! And we were on Taiwan TV as the reporter interviewed us! HAHAAH. The journey down the mountan was terrible and we nearly for into accidents many times. the worst was when the whole taxi skidded down and twirled in CIRCLES!!! omg.... Thank God we are all fine... we were praying throughout the journey!! We went to He Huan Shan, and then Tarako Gorge... It was so beautiful!!!! And I saw what a gorge was REAL LIFE and not textbook view! :p yup and we finally reached Hualien in the evening and ate pai gu mian!!! We also saw this procession which was to commemorate taiwan's 100th birthday! There were like fireworks right ABOVE our heads!!!

Day Seven
We headed to Taipei by train and the journey was about 2 hours long. Stopped at SongShan Station. We shopped at Wu Fen Pu Fashion Market, which was right next to out Hotel, Wonstar Hotel. (funny name right LOL)
In the night, we walked to RaoHe Night market and shopped there too!~!

Day Eight
It's DADDY'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!
We headed to BeiTou after breakfast. And we went to Sulfer Valley. IT WAS SMELLY! There was HYDROGEN SULFIDE SMELL EVERYWHERE!!! D: then we went to BeiTou Outdoor hotspring! OMG it was SUPER HOT!!! I couldn't take it at first and i even got dizzy after I got out of it. But well, I must say it was a good experience... for the sake of beauty... :p
We ate at Sushi Express for lunch and the food was good and cheaper than in Singapore! I LOVE SUSHI! (:
Then we went to DanShui... an old town. The atmosphere was cool and we managed to catch sunset and tried some cool food.
then we went to Shilin Night Market! And took a train back.

Day Nine
Went to MaoKong Gondola early in the morning at Taipei Zoo MRT station. Scenic view as we sat on the crystal Gondola with a transparent base!
After that, we went to XiMenDing. And ate Ah-Tzung Mee Sua!!!
Next, we headed to a school at XinYi Road. It is called Affiliated Senior High school of Taipei Normal University. We made a few friends! Haha they are super cute! Lily, Rosalyn, ViVi and Jenny! >< HAHAH. They are from the English gifted class (; we went to taipei 101 for dinner! Dinner was great! (;Day Ten
We spent the whole day at the Flora Expo! It was quite nicely done up! (:
And in the night, we went back to Wu Fen Pu to shop! LOL

Day Eleven
We woke up super late LOL. Went to XinYi commercial Area. Went to eslite bookshop which is a super huge one :p and had lunch there!
Reached the airport at 2 plus pm and flew back. The plane journey was better than expected for me! Praise the Lord!

In all, the trip was quite a good one! (: thanks daddy for planning! (:

OLEVEL RESULTS TMR!!! SCARED SCARED SCARED... Expectations KILLLL. :/

Taiwan and Japan... here I come! (:

2010-12-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

I'm leaving to Japan tomorrow morning and then to Taiwan on 1 Jan 2011! So I guess I won't have any time to blog! So I blog now.

I'm slightly excited... not VERY because I really hate plane rides and I'm sad I'm going to miss church services! And Joanne's sermon! ):

I'm going to buy lunch and sweets (for plane rides) later!

I'm so glad I finally packed my clothes cupboard! I threw away so many funny pyjamas, which I wore when I was younger... :p laugh laugh laugh!!!

I wonder what I am going to do after lunch and after buying sweets...OH PAINT NAILS! How could I forget that! and call Alicia! Okay... (:

And when I return, Olevel results will be out two days after that! And I must really prepare my heart. Actually, I'm already preparing my heart now. ahhhhhhh! >< >< ><

okay I shan't think of it now... holiday mood... SWITCH PLEASE! seriously, every morning I wake up and think about Olevel results... omg seriously, expectations kill!

I wanna meet expectations! I don't want to let anyone down!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!! And if I do badly, I conclude... I AM STUPID because I studied so hard and don't do well. ):

OKAY I SHOULD STOP THINKING. COS IM GOING CRAZY.

Okay enjoy the last bit of holidays!

I hope to meet Sabrina and Caleb in Taiwan!!! But I doubt so... our itineraries are one day behind!!!!!!

No matter what, the musical (:

2010-12-27T15:19:00.001+08:00

Musical was awesome, I must really say... (: And through this musical, I made a few new friends and got to know many people much better! (:

Although the many rehersals and three days of musical were tiring, they were all WORTH IT! We sowed the seeds of the people... at least people got to hear and know Jesus better! (: YAY! And I'm so glad 8 of my friends came on the last night! Jolene, Alicia Choo, Alicia Ho, Melberly, Yuan Ting, Wei Tian, Hui Juan, May... thanks for coming and I'm so glad that you enjoyed it!! (: And I'm so happy to see you all after such a long long time!! ><

I'll miss all the rehersals and practices a lot... I'm already having musical withdrawal symptoms... LIke at this time, I should be in church... doing my hair now!! HAHA!!! :p

I'm going off to Japan and then Taiwan in two days time!! I'm going to homestay with a Japanese Girl!!! I'm so excited about that!! But scared also... haha.

I hate PLANESSSSSS... D: the journey is so long some more D: D: D: STILL MUST CHANGE PLANE D:

musical rehersals, etc

2010-12-23T15:22:00.002+08:00

Musical rehersals have been really hectic so far, especially this period and that explains why I havent been coming online these few days...

I havent been feeling well too... ):

Went to Singapore Universal Studios with Pastor Adrian and his kids plus Minwei on Monday... Well, USS wasn't as great as I had expected... there were quite few rides, the rides weren't scary, and there were far too many people! So the whole place was so packed! Hard to walk around... But it was certainly fun with the kids!

Today, I have one whole day to rest and guess what... I woke up at 3pm... THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE!!! Now I feel super drowsy lah! GRRR. My neck aches too ): I HATE FLU.

):

2010-12-17T15:48:00.002+08:00

I have so much medicine to take!!! 12 PILLS A DAY or more!!! ZOMG! 0_0 If I could eat Sodium Hudroxide to neutralise the acid... I would..

Now, my throat really hurts too ): I don't know why... ):

Going to Universal studios on Monday with Pastor Adrian and his kids and Minwei! (:

okay I REALLY REALLY hope I can get well very, very soon...

Princess Protection Progamme!!!

2010-12-15T17:14:00.002+08:00

We had PPP from yesterday till today! And it was great! (: Thanks so much Joanne for everything!!! WE really appreciate it! ><

Yesterday my sis and I met Tiara in Heartland Mall where Tiara bought the ingredients and then we headed to her house to bake! We baked pink cupcakes and PINK pasta! Haha... okay it's beetroot pasta! So as to follow the pinky theme... :p

A sea of PINK greeted our eyes when we entered Joanne's house... okay except the colourful Pasta... there were PINK sugar icing biscuits, PINK decorations... and Joanne was wearing a PINK shirt... lol. (: we watched Princess Protection Programme (a movie btw)! IT WAS SUPER CUTE LA! Then after dinner, a few of us went late night SWIMMING!! >< MayAnn brought her underwater camera, so we captured many shots UNDER the WATER! (:

Then, we watched movies again! Watched Enchanted... and the rest watched Cinderella Story after that... well, sadly I can't watch! I had to go Minxian's house to sleep as I had acid reflux ):

Hopped onto the bus in which the rest in PPP were on and headed to Vivo in the morning! We watched Rapunzel! OMG it's super ADORABLE AND NICE!!! (ploxy?) I shouldn't have cut my hair seriously.... ):

Went home after lunch in VIVO...

going to Church for Musical Dedication night later!!! And Minxian and joyce are coming to stay over!!! WHEEEE ><

I really hope my acid reflux won't come back ): It's super tiring!!! I really can't stand it alreadyyyyy!!!

sianness

2010-12-13T18:54:00.003+08:00

total sianness... I didn't out to any nice place today...

Please God,
I NEED TO DANCE!!! So, it need to heal by then!

I'm so scared but I know I must have faith... ):

ACID REFLUX MUST GO TOO! and whatever that infection is! GO AWAY!

Yes, I do feel stress that people are becoming so Radical and what about me! No guts!? I wanna be radical too! I really do! but its so hard! its really so hard!

:/

2010-12-12T14:52:00.002+08:00

I don't want to go KL D: Hate the long journey there... can't we shop in Singapore? URGH!

have Christmas family gathering later too (:

BUT going to see a doctor for a few stuff later D: I'm very scared.... ):

camp RADICAL

2010-12-09T15:07:00.003+08:00

The camp was quite good (:

But this year, I felt the focus was much more different from all the other years of youth camp... and that is to be BOLD and have FAITH and spread the gospel to those living in the dark. (: And I want to be use as God's instrument!!! (:

I love my camp group! May Ann, Edlyn, Amanda, Queenie, Chris Chang, Kai Keeve, Kelvin, Jed! haha, all of you are SO AWESOME! TRULY AWESOME! Haha, we rock at the station games mann! HAHAHAH! Yes, and I'm so glad that everyone was so open to sharing with one another (: thanks my awesome group (: I'll miss you!!

The dorms were freezing COLD. My dorm mates were cool too... mainly the girls from my group, plus JOYCEY, JOANNEY, BELLA, KATHLEEN and VICTORIA! (: And the last night Joyce and I decided to share a BED! HAHA. Quite fun though!!! (: But had backaches as the bed was rather thin :p heh.

Meals were okay (: like what I usually eat (:

In all, I felt that camp was not bad and though it felt short, however, I felt God's prescence (:

However, I feel rather restricted at times as I felt I couldn't respond to the altar calls and stuff as I felt very bad to leave the keyboard for altar calls... yeah... so I felt that I didn't really respond readily to God's calling... which is something I'm regretting... but I guess... I can't do anything now... I'll just pray for it...

I really hope that that hunger and fire for God will not be burnt out and that ALL OF US can be salt and light for God! (:

Rock on LOUD GEN! (:

PCC!

2010-12-05T18:05:00.003+08:00

PCC stands for Pre-Camp Camp! So that means the real camp begins tomorrow!!!

Well I must say, I am excited! WHEEPEEE!

PCC was... not as tiring as last year's (: It was not as last minute HAHA. (:

I really do hope everything in the camp would turn out well!! God, we need your help! (:

okay, I shall go pack and sleep slightly earlier tonight! SUPER TIRED!!! D:

I'm so sad... my gastric is coming back so often D:

when boredom hits in

2010-11-30T10:52:00.002+08:00

I'm bored. Very bored. And the worst thing is that today... I have nothing to do. Nothing important to do. ):

I shall pack for Pre-camp Camp then! But that will take very fast... ):

Woke Joyce up at 9.15am but I went back to sleep as I had a headache... haha. And I think I'm going to cut my hair and bathe 3 times again.

I'd rather study again... It's so boring. :/

worried...

2010-11-25T15:20:00.002+08:00

I'm very worried for this Sat's band though... I don't know why but no drummer, no female vocalist... I just feel that everything is not going to go so right... the start already shows... It's just worrying... ):

The publicity for camp... SO LITTLE TIME TO REHERSE! urghh... everything's so wrong!

Sunday... I'm playing keyboard for 2nd service... I'm REALLY SCARED. Because all the songs are rather unfamiliar to me... more than half of the song set though! I mean I'm not blaming anyone for the song set, but I'm just a noob because I don't know so many songs... -_-

I feel so bored and everything that I planned to do / need to do is like done. All I can do now is keep practising piano. I can't tune my Viola cos now it keep 'untuning' itself! So I can't play my Viola. Nothing to do. I'm real BORED. Life is seriously meaningless without studying. Maybe I should just go read up for JC. sigh. I hate this boredom! Someone give me something to do! I feel like I've just retired or something!

URGH!

The only 'happening' thing today is dance rehersal in church in the evening! Well, it seems like forever to reach 7pm.. URGHHHH!

PROM night!

2010-11-23T15:35:00.002+08:00

It was an awesome night!

Firstly, I would want to thank Minxian and my sis for helping me with the make-up and stuff! Also, I would want to thank my family and minxian for coming to my prom! Lastly, thank you so much my friends for making it such a wonderful FANTABULOUS night! (: Love you all!

Alicia's mum drove alicia and I to Swissotel! (:

The food was okay la. Didn't eat much though. :/ But it was fun! The candle lighting, food, photo takings, songs, dance, performances, class videos, were COOL! (:

Thanks for everything! I love St Nicks and I will miss St nicks!!!

Music Ministry Workshop!

2010-11-20T21:53:00.002+08:00

The workshop was quite good and I gained quite a few insights! About musical flow and prophetic flow... (: haha, oh and free worship! (:

the floor was hard and the water was cold. But still... it was a great experience.

YAY! Mel, Janice and Alicia CHOO came to my church today!!! (: So happy! Praise the Lord!! (: And they loved the worship!! (: I lead CG for the first time! It was a little weird. heh. heh. but I'm encouraged by the responses (: THANKS! (:

Went out with Alicia and Mel to VIVO and we bought nail polish! WHEE!~~~

I feel so lonely now... :/

Music Min workshop

2010-11-18T09:20:00.002+08:00

today... school at 10am!
ALICIA CHOO, texted me at 6 plus am, asking if school's at normal time, and she had already changed to go to school!!!??? Thankfully I was awakened by her message... haha. Going to school to let the teacher vett the pro dress... and collect stuff... (:

Going to church at 2pm for some VIVO activity. Then after dinner is Music Ministry Workshop! It's a overnight thing and thus, I won't be blogging till about Sat!

Well I must say life hasn't been very interesting after Os but at least everything's not so rush. I don't have to gobble my meals in 5 minutes! And now,I take more than an hour. :p heh.

okay! BYEE! CAN'T WAIT FOR SAT AS MY DEARIES ARE COMING TO MY CHURCH!!!!

MEGA FRIENDS and dance

2010-11-17T19:49:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, I went out with my Besties!!! Melberly and Alicia! We watched Megamind after shopping in art shops... The movie was quite cute!!! :p and then we ate in Pasta Mania!! (: It was certainly a great outing and bonding!! And we should really go out again this holiday!!

TODAY!
I went to church with my sissy early at 10am today... for DANCE rehersal! It was quite fun la. HAHA. Improve (: Then we went to Minxianny's house for lunch! (: Minxian's sushi is GREAT! LALALA. Then I went to VIVO and bought my prom shoes!! It's high and I really hope I won't fall up the stage :/

It's OVERRR! wheee!

2010-11-15T19:39:00.004+08:00

yay yay! It's finally OVER! Bio was okay. (:

But I really don't feel much of the happiness though... :p don't know why... :/

RIGHT AFTER BIOLOGY, my class shared 3 bottles of sparkling juice! And took class pictures and video. (:

Jo, Huai Tian and I went to Bishan to buy KOi Bubble tea!! It was nice (: I drank hazelnut milk tea! WHOO :p And then we walked around in J8. It was boring. Bad HT didn't want to watch movie.

Later, JO and HT came to my house to play and take pics!! WHEE! fun fun. (:

Going out with ALICIA and MEL tomorrow!!! (: (: (:

FREEDOMMMM IS HERE! ~~~

soon... soon...

2010-11-12T13:45:00.002+08:00

It's going to be over very very soon! Just about 3 days or so!!! WHEE!

I'm so disappointed in my CHEM paper one... I made SO MANY careless mistakes!!! It's like I'm not going to forgive myself for that... I minus EIGHT yucky marks! How great is that right!!!! OMG... I'm fuming mad!!!! At myself!!!! super super irritated... my A1 for CHEM is GONE. A2 I don't even know already!!! D: sad sad sad... ):

AHHH spoil my mood... ):

But the fun thing today was... MY LOVELY FREINDS came to my house!!! WHEE! (for a very short while only la...) heee. :p We played for a short while and ate lunch in a Jap restaurent... then they went back... (: But still... it was FUN!! And thanks for coming! WHOO! Alicia Choo mummy! Janice Da-est Jie! Melberly Da-er Jie! WHEE HEE!!! (:LOVE YOU ALL! Can't wait to go out after Os together again! AND can't wait for next Sat!!! YOU KNOW WHY!!!!! <3 LOVE LOVE LOVE!

Well, actually, i don't know why... I didn't feel very happy when the thought of Olevels are ending came to my mind... :/ haha maybe I'm going to miss studying? HAHAHA. No la.. but now... I think I'm slightly hyped up! (:

GO MY DEAR BIO CHIQUES! BIO ROCKS TTM! WHEEEE! (: last three days! ACE IT BABY! (going crazy alr...)

higher CHEENA

2010-11-10T14:10:00.002+08:00

For Chinese, there's certainly NEVER a time when you can safely say... I have studied everything already... :(

The paper TWO was definitely easier than my school's papers... DUH! But my TIAN KONG have like 5 wrong already!!!!!!!!! 10 marks GONE! D:

The Paper one... I'm so thankful gong han came out! Totally hate Si Han and Yan Jiang Ci. :p But I think I wrote my gong han too long already... ): The compo was okay I guess... but not really the conventional style... I really hope I did okay!

Well but I know my chinese sucks la. So I don't have any high expectations on myself for Higher Chinese...

I heard from my junior that this year's NOV olevel CHINESE paper was easy!! She said it much much easier than my year's... ): my year's papers all so SWAYYY D: AHHH. D: And the weirdest thing is that what came out for CHINESE today... was what I studied yesterday... -_- not higher chinese... ):

oh well, but HIGHER CHINESE's OVERR! WHOOO! Two more papers left! CHEM and BIO paper ONE! They should totally just put the paper ONEs together with the paper TWOs... -_-

believe...

2010-11-09T19:33:00.003+08:00

my Sec 2 Chinese teacher told me this today...
相信自己，　胜券在握.

Im going to believe...

slack world

2010-11-09T09:29:00.003+08:00

well, I'm certainly entering my slack world... :p yesterday... after that 3 hours of Chinese tuition, I breaked likefor don't know how long! And started ok at around 8pm... :/ THEN I only did some bao zhang and gong han reading... :p TODAY I NEED TO READ MY 250 CHENG YUs!!!! D: ewwww... :/ but I guess it's not going to be too stressful... because my Chinese is kind of hopeless... HAHA. So can't do much la. :p

HAHA. slack mood... slack slack slack.. I LOVE TO SLACK!

SS OVER!

2010-11-08T15:12:00.003+08:00

omg SS is overrr! I really hate SS though.. :/

But the coolest thing is that ALL the 3 themes I 'spotted' and studied came out!!! And when we were waiting for the time to start to paper... everyone was looking through the 'translucent' question paper. HAHA I saw...: HEALTHCARE, GLOBALISATION, VENICE... *smiles* starting giggling... HAHA. omg I think I was mad... but really, the essay questions are HARD. I think... :/

(: I did the Venice question though... Essay was tricky I'd say... And I FORGOT TO CROSS REFERENCE FOR THE LAST SBQ!!! The invigilator was like ONE MORE MINUTE... I found out then that I didnt cross ref but I know I couldn't do the cross-ref in ONE MINUTE. so I gave up. ahhh!

Had 3 TIRING HOURS of CHINESE Tuition... D: ahhhhh... but It's my last Chinese tuition... had tuition with Nanyang girl and Victoria boy. GONNA PLAY TODAY! HAha, I mean not whole day laaa.

totally need to catch up with the dance steps!!!! D:

huh... can I get in there??? AHHHH!

NO MORE MEP

2010-11-04T11:14:00.002+08:00

YAYYEE! Mep is finally over! I envied those who finished BIO yesterday and was EVEN more envious of those who finished geog and physics on Tuesday.. and I wondered for quite some time, why I took MEP... :p

But IT'S OVER! And I think it was fun! I think I over studied for Oklahoma part :/ or rather the passage that they CUT out from was rather familiar. heh. Woke up at around 4.45am today again to mug MEP. But it was fun. hee. (: really. I suddenly like Oklahoma... weirdest thing ever!

The world music section was... unexpected. Cos the hardest Indian and Indonesian Music didn't come out!!!! ): well, I kind of wanted that to come out though.. ): African, Chinese, Japanese and MALAY music came out! Malay Music (KOMPANG) hasn't come out for MANY MANY years. eh wait, I think it hasn't came out BEFORE. Because it's too easy I think. And the worst thing is that I didn't really study a lot on Malay Music. Early today, I still went to listen to INDIAN music on youtube... wasted my time mann... Oh and the world music extracts were rather NOISY and weird... esp the CHINESE. Luckily I took panadol before the paper... if not, I would have died listening.

Gonna break longer todayy! Though I think I'm kind of used to studying and mugging the whole day.. thanks to this week.. MANN! I can't wait to go to church! HAHA!

BUT, I don't feel like starting Social Studies at ALL D: ! It's boring... dead boring... D:

I suddenly feel quite sad... cos there's NO MORE MEP. NO MORE Ms Foo!D: No more Ms Poh D: No more Mdm Peh D: NO MORE D: No more Oklahoma! D: No more world music D: NO MORE WESTERN MUSIC! NO MORE MAY! NO MORE EVERYTHING! D: D: D: cos I don't think I'm going to take music in JC already... heard it's very very very tough.

Im not going to burn or throw away my SEC 4 notes... I'm going to love them forever. MY BLOOD LEH!My dad wants to publish it and earn money. -_- haha!

5 more papers!!! 5 5 5 5 5 !!!!!!! JIAYOU MY FRIENDS! WHEEEE! (:

mann... my eyes are pokey. Eye bags totally doubled in size. Twice blacker too D: Oh mann... Im ugly!

BIOLOGYYY!

2010-11-03T17:04:00.003+08:00

I woke up today, with double eyebags. haha I got a shock. But thankfully it went slightly back to normal after a few hours. heh.

I studied SO HARD for this! Until I almost went CRAZY!!! almost 30 hours non-stop... But aiya, that's my way of expressing my LOVE for BIO. lol. okay Im mad. I know.

To be frank, I hate the BIO paper. It cheated my feelings. BECAUSE, they tested so little. urghh. It's like the bulk of the MEMORY PARTS were not tested. I woke up at 4 plus am to mug till 1.20 pm. PLUS yesterday. And nothing much really came out... -_- haha.

MEP!!!! I really DREAD Oklahoma... DREAD IT. But no choice. Love WORLD. It's fun. But I don't feel like studying. :/ I think I've got enough of studying, cramming, mugging, stressing out for this week already. Fine, ONE MORE DAYY!

Can't wait for the weekends to come. (: Tmr! Quickly pass lehhhhhh!!!!!!!

Geography, bye

2010-11-02T10:40:00.003+08:00

well, somehow I'm sad that I won't be studying anymore Secondary school Geog... But aiya, I am happy that's this STUDY paper is finally over! I chionged it so hard that I only took 5 min for dinner, and I usually take more than an hour. :p

It was with Faith and God's help that I managed to finish studying HALF of the textbook of geog yesterday and that I could wake up at 4.30am today to review. Thank you God.

Had really, really , really bad cramps in the morning when I woke up to study, so I wasted 30 min on the bed lazing on it. :/ But thankfully the cramps were bearable during the paper! (:

I really need the strength to mug BIOLOGY today!!! At least i have slightly more than 24 hours plus sleeping. Biology is my love! Well, but to be frank, I'm already so tired of studying... thanks to geography which totally drained me.

OH YA, GEOG TODAY! I feel so urghy now because I think I have one question wrong already... and I didn't finish writing about GM Food!!!! I wanted to embark on my explaination of Golden Rice, but I HAD NO TIME D: ahhh!!! I shan't cry over spilled milk.

DRANK A WHOLE BOTTLE OF BRANDS ESSENCE OF CHICKEN TODAY! AND YESTERDAY TOO! for energy's sake... but I really do hate the taste. :p blehhhhheh.

LIT: (yesterday) Paper one was quite fun! I LOVE the topic on Hypocrisy, well, it INDIRECTLY came out. (: And the unseen was cute! I went home to read it again! HAHA. Paper TWO on Midsummer was slightly harder though, as in in school, we have never really practised those few essay topics... :p but oh well, IT'S OVER! (:

To alicia chooey!!! : I am really motivated by what you told me that day. Though you're not a Christian, you have faith and believe in the prayers we prayed together before Os and you trust and stop worrying after praying. I NEED TO LEARN FRM YOU! I tried it yesterday... (: It helped a little! Thanks! Jiayou for SS on Mon!

Physics girls are kind of free now... SO GOOD D: MEP girls have extended Misery. D: Can't wait for Friday to come and then Sat and then Sun, not Mon though!

okay bye! I'm going to be a hardworking girl and begin my BIOLOGY journey with plants and humans. farewell! And all the best to those having Olevels too! God bless!

D:

2010-10-30T18:14:00.002+08:00

the more you feel like dying, the more you must press on.
I wasted 30 min crying but at least I feel so much better.
Of 3 and a half years of my life, it never really came, and of ALL TIMES why must it happen now?!

can't wait for this to end. quickly leh...

7 DOWN! 10 MORE to go!

2010-10-29T17:52:00.002+08:00

Amath was okay but I felt that overall, Amath was a hard paper this year... probably the hardest in History. But OH WELL, it's over and as Ms Chan said today in the hall, St Nicks love challenges... well, I should go and love them too.

Chemistry paper TWO was definitely much much much easier than my school's papers!!! But I don't know a few questions... ): But at least I know what I don't know and not like normally, after school papers, I don't know what I know and don't know. :/

So scared for next week... so many papers!!!! elit, egeog, biology, MEP!!!!!!!!!!!!! Deadly study subjects on consecutive days!!! can die. okok, won't die won't die.

It certainly feels like it's all over... hah. Yeah yeah, but I know it's not... the most tiring is YET TO COME D:

I'll miss secondary school MATH and AMATH!!!! No more Math already D: D: D:

desperately need a break. :/

19 more days to the end of the end.

2010-10-26T17:20:00.003+08:00

Well, so far, two papers have passed...
I love my classroom that I'm taking my papers in these two days! No mosquitoes, No heat waves... well, I really do pity those taking papers in MY old class... A reminder to those... JANICE LOOK! : Put insect repellent!

English paper: Paper One was slightly hard as I didn't really like the essay topics and I spent over 15 minutes just choosing which essay to do! BUt I wrote a discursive in the end... something that I havent been practising... :/ Situational was okay I guess... speech... I hope mine was not too non-speechy :p paper two compre was so much better than sch's papers! About bees and honey. :p Summary was tiring as there were so many words to CUT! And I was a kiasu kid and tied over 10 knots on the string. :p

Math Paper ONE: TODAY! I really thought the paper was fun and yeahh great! I felt so unprepared when I went in though... :p Well, but it's sad because I lost one mark. ): Yay as I managed to have 40 minutes to check (: Maybe it isn't a lot but at least I could check once thoroughly! WHEE! I hope tomorrow's paper will be fun too (:

So tired!!!! And it seems that afternoon papers really are so tiring! Yesterday, UI totally had NO MOOD to study!

Okay bye. Going to study Amath and Chem! I'm going to just leave Emath for tomorrow again! Jiayou everyone! (:

Alicia bestie, don't think about the papers that have passed! Move on okay!!! Lobe you loads and will always be praying for you! (: Let's strive to go (you know where) ! Yay all the wayyy!!! ~~~

the battle begins...

2010-10-24T17:07:00.003+08:00

God, you will help me right? I don't want to live in doubt and darkness! I want to trust and believe that You will help me in all ways! I can't do this without You... And with You, I'm not going to be scared, I'm not going to worry, I'm not going to have problems sleeping... Help me have faith in You...

All the best my dear friends. This is our last lap, our last chance... jiayou and let's run this together! Love you all!

ONE MORE DAY.

2010-10-23T21:40:00.003+08:00

It's one more day left... since most of today is over already... AHHH! D:

and well, I'm thankful that all those chaos around me has stopped, and now, I can study peacefully, at least more peaceful then before...

I'm quite scared, and I can't believe Jolene is numb!? omg... haha, aiya, she smart what.... hai...

I'm so happy today as I finished TKAMMM!! To Kill A Mockingbird! WHEE! Oh no... I havent started MEP and Midsummer Night's dream. :p uhoh...

ENGLISH On MON! L1!! I must do well!!!!!!!!! If not I'll just die.

Had Camp recce today... (:

okay, bye. going to mug/practise EMATH.

one more day, jiayou my friends! God, I need your help, grant me strength please?

I don't wanna show how I really feel, I don't want you to see my true feelings. Because I want you to trust me, I want you to have confidence in me. I don't like it when you don't trust me, so I have to fake it out. I'm just going to show you that I'm confident in this exam, I will.

3 days...

2010-10-21T08:44:00.002+08:00

3 days more... sighh. Yes, now's not the time to give up... I don't want to regret it later... I really don't want to... press on please!!!

2 days ago, Alicia CHOO! Came to my house to study! As her house had some renovation... it was fun! Haha, at least it was productive! (:

Maybe I should really start regilating my sleeping time and stuff... Have been sleeping at 2am plus plus these few weeks! And now, it's going to be HARD to sleep early... okay fine maybe today... I keep pushing the 'today' forward... :p heh.

Was really dizzy last night.. omg, I felt as if the whole world was going to collapse on me. It was very bad. :/

Jiayou my friends... I love you all!

God, I pray that you help my friends and I press on and run the last lap! Amen.

6 days to DOOMS

2010-10-18T19:13:00.002+08:00

fast ): ........ too fast... ):

But somehow, I really want it to quickly end... 27 more days. QUICKLY!!!

Fine, I'm totally contradicting myself... :/

Can I finish studying??? mannnnn... :/ :/ :/ :c

It's weird that even though I'm sleeping later, I'm not exactly tired physically... But I'm super super tired mentally!! D: gahh.

I think I studied harder suring Prelims lehh. ahh I don't know! Crap, I better do something before it's all too late :/

And what's my problem mann! I keep thinking about stuff I wanna do AFTER Os! STOP THINKING, ME!

I MUST INDULGE IN STUDYING. ENTER THE WORLD OF BOOKS AND WORDS. ~~~

I die for MUSIC

2010-10-14T17:38:00.004+08:00

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I'm REALLY going to die this time! D: D: D:

I don't even think this year my level can hit MEP 90 over % distinction already! Ms Poh said, " AiYA! No one ever fails music please!"

Well, sad to say, we may be the first batch of girls who will do SO BADLY that it would might as well be considered as a FAIL. Sorry teachers!

OMG, thanks to Oklahoma! OKLAHOMA! You are not OK. Please it's not meant to be funny. All because of unlucky us, being the first batch of pupils taking musical as our set work that there's NO SAMPLE for us! We have NO CLUE about what CAN possibly come out now! D: DEVASTATING D: now to play safe, I need to WASTE MY TIME to watch SOUND OF MUSIC and THE KING AND I. Now, study for Os watch what right!?! GRRR!

May, Liting, Huai Tian, Qian Pin, Chloe and I volunteered for MEP remedial today and I JUST REALISED, TODAY, THAT... I AM DEAD. Just like how "pore Jud" died... ):

My humanities are on the road to no where... DIE. It's TOO LATE right? TOO LATE! EVERYTHING's TOO LATE!!! D: thanks ah Oklahoma, if only there wasn't you...

OMG, am I going to fail Oklahoma????? That's going to be my question for the next month... no less. :/

11 days to FAT Os. Well, Time REALLY flies. And i'm beginning to wonder if I even have time to finish my third round already.

I'm getting worried for ENGLISH too! :/ So I went to practise ENGLISH. And I loved Eng tuition yesterday... I LOVE AMY TAN's story... "Two Kinds"... I mean that section, about Piano. I think it's so true and cool (: I wanna write like that... haha, busy bee tune-- I can't stop laughing at that still!!! Oh mann, the way she writes it is SO SO FUNNY! I think I wanna buy that book after Olevels and read it (:(:(:

But at least something slightly MORE comforting... I thought that you need to PASS ALL the segments of MEP, which means, the sub-segments of MEP like world music, western music and OKLAHOMA to even use it as a Humanity subject. But, PHEW! Ms Poh said you only need to pass overall of these sub-segments! (: BUT! Must get distinction for the whole segment plus PRAC plus composition to get DISTINCTION for HIGHER MUSIC!!!!! okay. I. am. gonna. die.

Ms Poh is asking if we wanna take Alevel Music next year... OKLAHOMA so dead still take what right! D: mann, but anyway, maybe I should just take GEOG, the conventional. I don't want to take lit, I'm scared already. :/ aiya, see if I can even get into an MEP JC then talk laa!

D: AM I GOING TO FAIL OKLAHOMA? D: D: D: should I spent A LOT ALOT of time on OKLA now???? BIO? GEOG? SS? HOW! thankfully I finished CHEM and the MATHSSSS. BUT, crap, i think I forget. HOW HOWHOWHOHOWHOWHOWHOHWOHWOHWOHWOWHOWHOWH!!!!!

2010-10-13T09:08:00.002+08:00

I know I NEED to hang in! I know! But I feel extremely tired, drained and feel like dyinggg!!! But there's only 12 more days! So I can't!!! Please God, I really need Your help.

study 'break'

2010-10-11T11:05:00.002+08:00

It's kind of ironic. Study. BREAK. break........

Anyway, I have to return to school later in the afternoon for MEP lessons... but, oh well, it's going to be the LAST MEP lesson and it's sad... I kind og love MEP lessons now. I mean, really! It's like the most fun lesson somehow... other than Math la :p

The next time I go to school, I mean not today, would be for Olevels already.. ): 14 days time! Time flies!! ): I have only done 25% for third round of Geog and SS each! Urghh! :/

You know, I wish sometimes you could put yourself in the shoes of us. Like what Atticus said in To kill A Mockingbird, you need to " climb into (our) skin(s) and walk around in it".

Once a St Nicks Girl, Forever a St Nicks girl...

2010-10-08T23:37:00.004+08:00

I'm officially an ST Nicholas Girls' School Alumni. WE ARE. THE WHOLE GREEN BADGES ARE. THE SEC 4 COHORT.

But it's sad. Kind of depressing as well... to think that my secondary life is officially over... I'm going to reminise the past...

SEC 1 FAITH-- Seriously, I didn't know how I ended up in that class... :p it was a academically wonderful class. Everyone had very HIGH PSLE scores... everyone was smart... :/ It was a MEP class, and that was why, I went into MEP in the end ( I didn't come into sec sch with MEP, so I was like a late student :p) haha. I didn't make many friends though... and frankly speaking, I didn't enjoy being in that class. heh. BUT! I'm still in the same class as MANY of my sec one mates! Cos we're still in the same MEP class! Only the a few people dropped out of MEP. And many of them are my CCA mates! WHEE! (:

SEC 2 JUSTICE-- I LOVE THIS CLASS! A LOT! To be true, I have made my closest friends in that year... Alicia choo, alicia ho, Janice lee, Janice Chua! I love you all! And up till now, I'm still good friends with so many of you all from sec 2 Justice 2008! (: I will always remember this class as a super Multi-talented class, there are DRAMA, MUSIC, HOME ECONS girls! HAHA. The unity and enthusiasm is something I really missed. Although, many things happened in this within my closer group of friends, I am PROUD TO SAY STILL THAT... THAT GROUP OF FRIENDS ARE STILL GOING RECESS WITH ME DAILY! AND I REALLY LOOK FORWARD TO RECESSES SO MUCH~ (: Thanks so much for the very fond memories! And sec 2 J 2008 has always been one of my favourite classes in my education life! LOVE YOU ALL! (:

SEC 3 and 4 JUSTICE-- TWO WHOLE YEARS! WHEE! (: What a wonderful journey! You know what? I am EXTREMELY PROUD of this class! (: I feel so honoured to be in sec 4 Justice 2010! YOU're all SO WONDERFUL!!! (: I love our class cheer, I LOVE our class' enthusiasm, I love the hypeness! I love you all! Although, I feel quite sad that I didn't have the guts to talk to every single one in the class, I still wanna wish everyone ALL THE BEST FOR OLEVELS! Jiayou and I'm sure all of you can do it! (: LOVE YOU ALL LOADS! And we shall have a party after Os okay? HAHA, you can come to my house to party! WHEE! HAHA :p Yes and our class is super cool! there are MEP, ART, F&N girls all around too! so wonderful! I will never forget the beautiful times we shared together! the AWESOMENESS and CRAZINESS during lessons! HAHA. Love you all loads! (:

I am feeling extremely sad about the fact that today is my last official day in St nicks secondary... 10 years in SNGS, never in another school (except for Kindergarten. heh.) I can't stop crying again when I start to think about it... ):

migraine. bye

O or A?

2010-10-07T16:06:00.003+08:00

friday is coming... ): and it is dawning HARDER on me that doomsday is even nearer... sighh... :/

Slept at 2 plus am last night as I was super awake and didn't want to waste this opportunity... as nowadays I don't know why but I always feel so lethargic. :/ SLightly tired today though... but at least I'm catching up a little faster with my initial plan (:

oooh, I have a STRONG ADDICTION TO AMATH and MATH. Esp AMATH! I think it's so fun! LOVE AMATH PAPERS! WHEEEEE. (:

I'm getting bitten by mosquitoes so often!!! Maybe not so much in school now... as I put insect repellent daily... (that's how bad the condition of my sch is... ) :/ I wonder how it would be like for Os. Especially there is NO AIR-CON room to take Os (I think) and what if a lizard drops onto my table during Os! Surely I would scream! Then I die. 'Disqualified'! :/ :/ :/ Actually I don't even know my blood group. But now, I strongly believe I stand in the 25% chance, which is Blood Grp O. sweetest blood. The bites I get is UNCOUNTABLE. 75% chance of being A blood type.... I think I'm recessive already. UNIVERSAL DONOR! :/

My nerves in leg and arm seems sprained now... I don't know why!!!!!! It's so weird!

Last PE session was over. Last Geog session, English, SS, ELIT. Too fast. really.

I feel so sad. stupid me.

I'm scared I can't act well!!! :/

the last assembly

2010-10-06T22:07:00.002+08:00

Today -- the last assembly. It was kind of touching... I felt much like crying for what the lower sec and sec 3s did today... I think for once, I'm really going to miss assembly in SNGS... although, I don't sing the National anthemn and school song. heh. :p

She was so nice today. Which is usually not the case. I used to really hate her. But now... she is making me like her! At least a little lah... She was like," Today, is our last lesson together... I wish you all the best for your Os and ..." and then my class did some yam-seng thing. HAHA. Well, I suddenly feel like crying and very sad... I don't want that time to come so soon... ): It feels like doomsday is coming too fast. really.

I feel really sad now... I keep thinking. What if. and How.

God, I pray you take away those ill and negative thoughts! I wanna be happy.

School is coming to an end. Meaning... life in St Nicks is ending too. Suddenly, I feel really sad too. It's like suddenly I feel that I like St Nicks, I like the atmosphere, I really love my class, my friends, the recesses, the teachers, the lessons... they're all ending. Friday, this Friday is that very last official day of lessons. Those ill-feelings of the school all of a sudden just VANISHED, turning into that really 舍不得 feeling... ):

I don't know, but I feel rather miserable now. ):

):

2010-10-02T11:20:00.004+08:00

I feel so sad for the Cambridge Medical student, Tan Mingwei... ): I really feel so sorry for her... She's only 20 years old! Poor girl!!! ):

After reading the article, I realise that really, life is so unpredictable... It's such a cliche, but think about it, it's so logical and true...

A girl with such bright future, good heart and even pretty! It's really a pity! To be dragged under the vehicle for around 1.6km!? It's so terrible and I even cringe at the pain she might have been feeling then! It's so tragic! ):

This incident also reminded me of my cousin... and how he died. ): It was the same tragic way.....

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Well, it's finally Saturday and I just had 2.5 hours of CHINESE TUITION! D: so tiring... and I feel like puking now :/ cos I was reading in the car... :/ blehhhhh. ): Think I'm going to do some BIO and Math before I go to church...

JANICE! PLease come after Os then okayyyy!!!

TWO PONYTAILS DAY! (:

2010-10-01T22:59:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY! It's SO WONDERFUL to think I'm young again! (:

My class commemorated Children's day by tying our hair into 2 ponytails, to revive that kiddo spirit in us! It was simply cute and cool(:

Unfortunately, my MEP teachers mocked me D: booohooooooo D: so baddie! ):

Yup, THANKS LILAN LAOSHI! (form teacher) who even bought us delicious chips and some REALLY NICE RASPBERRY ROLLS! It was awesome... (: You're the best form teacher ever!!!! (: THANKS A LOT ONCE AGAIN! (: 李老师，谢谢您！！！

Snapped many shots today :p

Had CHEM extra lesson too... and it was very tiring and I felt much like fainting as I didn't have time to eat lunch!!! ): But I gobbled a lot of food in the end after CHEM lesson. :p

Had CHEM tuition soon after... it's such a CHEMY day today... :/ but oh well, what to do? My CHEM simply SUCKS :/

I'm soooo tired now... NOW, need to do BIO and CHINESE. BYE!

Higher Music Olevel Practical

2010-09-30T15:31:00.003+08:00

THANKS FOR PRAYING!!! (:
It went rather well!!! (: I'm so glad it's over (: (: (:

Reached school very early to meet Jessica, my piano teacher (: OMG! MY PIANO TEACHER IS SO COOL!!! She's young and can drive!!! WHEEEE! (: haha.

I was the first candidate for Higher Music component... I was surprisingly, not very scared... (: heh. there were 5 examiners... and one camera man... TAKING VIDEO! And there was a cool TV for the examiners to like see a close up view of my FINGERS! okay.. not so cool already... :p HIGHER MUSIC COMPONENT -- i played PIANO DUETS! Were GREAT! yay! ZERO MISTAKE! I'm so happy!!!! (: Thanks Jessica!!!! Let's play more duets in the future! (: wheehee! (:

Helped LEE HUAI TIAN to be her page turner... she told me so last minute!!! HAHA but thankfully I didn't screw it up (:

WAITED in the AVA (holding) room for VERY LONG for my second exam... Practised quite a lot while waiting too! (:

My second exam was at 11.50pm. and it was POURING HEAVILY!!! And worst still, my exam room was another one, far away from the holding room with minimal shelter... AND! I was holding my dear VIOLA!!!!! I couldn't get wet!!! INCLUDING THE BOW! D: I had to literally use my pinafore to cover my Viola and ended up with much rosin 'deposited' on my pinafore D: And sadly, Viovio was still a bit wet. ): But thankfully, my viola piece wasn't my first piece! SO it had some time to dry!! haha..

The Olevel MUSIC COMPONENT was quite good!!! (: yay! But I hit a wrong note in the beginning!!!!!! AH! Because I was looking at the pedal! ): I shouldn't have looked at it! ): BUt the rest was okayy (: Except some unclear notes in the Mozart's Sonata... Viola piece was (:

YAY! It's over! studied a bit of BIO and then Lunched with my piano teacher in school (: MISSED ALL THE LESSONS! WHEE!!!!!! (:

I'm SO GLAD IT'S OVER!!!

omg, my class is going to tie 2 pony tails tomorrow to commemorate childrens' day! so awkward... heh.

AHAH!

2010-09-29T16:00:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is SCARY DAY :/ I'm scared... ): I heard one of my rooms have seven people!!! D: And it's the first thing I'm gonna see in the morning, as IM THE FIRST CANDIDATE! D: D: D: And it's my FIRST exam room! D: D: D: scared scared.... ): I think my second room has 4 examiners... if im not wrong. :/ SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm scared also that I will be sniffing my way through while Im playing!!!! While my fingers run across the piano keys, by nose will RUN together too! D: AHHH... ): I think I'm going to practise until my fingers drop today... ohno, then I'll have no fingers tmr. uhoh...

HAVEN'T DONE MY ENGLISH TUITION HW FOR LATER!!!!!!! But haiya, MUSIC FIRST. Piano lesson later too!!!! OMG... tmr.... );

SAD! My combine Humans is SO BAD!!!! D: But at least overall L1R5 is okay... better than usual though... but STILL!!!!!!!!!!! so sucky. My results ah.... have extremities... :/ in passing range though :p

A gahdo irritating boy was imitating me on the train!!!! MAD PERSON. He was like *stares* then *imitates* BLEH LAH!

I'm worried for CHEM and Humanities now.... Okay, I SHALL DIE. ): is everyone, or just me? ): boohoo. ):

AHHHHHHHHHH! scared. But I heard from Wei Tian and Ruei Ern that the examiners are from TKGS and that they are very nice.... (: that's good... but I'm still scared. I'm scared of examiners.

Have to help Ying Tong flip pages for her exam too!!! I'm SCARED!!!! HAHAA, really!!! I'm scared I screw it up for her!!!! omg... I think I'm more scared about fliping pages than my own exam!!! HAHA. But I'll do my best YT!

Jiayou MEP girls!!! You can do it! WE ARE DA MUSICIANS! GO FOR IT! (:

yay HAHA. I AM EXEMPTED FROM LESSONS TMR! WHEE! But it's because of Olevel MEP PRAC. ): but oh well, at least I don't need to rush the school papers today and stuff. AND CAN PRACTISE IN PEACE. (:

I DON'T UNDERSTAND why you must give us SO MANY other school prelim papers when we are supposed to EXPOSE ourselves more to Olevel papers and questions!!!! OMG, It's killing all of us!!!!!!!! Now, SNGS girls are brainwashed by the 'hardness' and we can't even see EASY questions already. Those easy questions become so hard in our eyes now!!! SO STOP GIVING US MORE PAPERS! And do OLEVEL papersssssss!!!!!!!!

tmr tmr. :/

2010-09-28T14:53:00.003+08:00

THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW. THIS IS IT. nervous breakdown :/

I managed to finish Math tuition homework! whee. but My study timetable... ahh, LAG all the wayy! D:

Today, Mrs koh instructed Yun Wen, Jadine and I to come by 7am to like carry papers and get the room ready for paper collection. like what ah! In the end... she said oh, meet at 7.15pm instead. I RUSHED LIKE SIAO WOMAN OKAY!!! Omg, until my dad nearly crashed into a car... :/ HAHA. omg, but Mrs Koh's Funny. :p and cute :p hahaa...

Yay!! A1 for AMATH, and I didn't expect that though :p heh. But MY LIT SUCKS. ): Oh well, looks like all SNGS GIRLS LITERATURE SUCKS YOU KNOW! Majority is getting Cs and this won't do for Os!!! I got a yucky C grade.... ): lit is so unpredictable... ):

getting back EGEOG and SS tomorrow.. :0

THERE'S SO MUCH HOMEWORK TO DO! CRAZY SCHOOL!? Can't you give us PEACE to do our own revision?!

oh no, I'm scared. bye.

2010-09-27T19:42:00.002+08:00

daddy came back (:

boohoo, still sick... ): I hope I will be okay by Thursday... MEP PRACTICAL!!! ): And I'm getting so nervous for MEP prac! Cos I'm the first candidate! D: D: D:

YAYEE. A1 for BIO. finally, something happy... (: ENG... ONE MARK TO A!!! Dangz. but oh well, I'm still thankful...

Return of AMATH and ELIT papers tomorrow... I feel quite DOOM about that papers... D: Math tuition tomorrow too! AHHH! I havent done my homework!!! NO MOODDDD! D:

weekends.

2010-09-26T14:54:00.002+08:00

): Still having fever...
But I went for dance rehersal still HAHA, but glad I went lol, the dance was HARD! I think if I missed it, I seriously won't know how I'm going to catch up... :p It's crazily hard! But haha, I admit GLEE songs are really nice (:

Return of Biology and English papers tomorrow... D: I'm scared...

MEP practical on Thursday! And I'm scared... going MUSIC INTENSIVE TODAY!!!

Day of Reflection...

2010-09-24T23:01:00.002+08:00

this year's day of reflection wasn't as good as the previous years to be frank... :p But thanks Father Simon and his team who came to share and stuff (:

I am officially an Alumnae of St Nicholas Girls'school! HAHA, and I suddenly felt very old after receiving the alumnae card and stuff. HAHA :/

Had Math tuition and I have to admit, I'm enjoying it... :/ weird right? YEAH I KNOW!!! And just returned from CHEM tuition... Thanks ALYSSA THE ALIEN for fetching me home (:

tomorrow is SATURDAY! JANICE!!! COMFIRM WITH ME!!!!! :/ :/ :/

omg, I'm sick.... URGH. and I'm tired of sniffing... :/

32 is the magic number

2010-09-23T15:34:00.002+08:00

yes, 32 more days to Os, but if you choose to be optimistic... well, there are 53 days to END of Os...

BUT! Only ONE WEEK TO MEP OLEVEL PRACTICAL! D: okay die. :/

Started on Exodus and I think I'm addicted. :p I'm serious... :p Its quite fun to read!!! haha.

Got back EMATH paper today... D: A1 ON THE DOT! It's kind of heng(1) but ON THE DOT! It's RISKY! And I don't think it's even good lorh. ):

Tomorrow is day of reflection and going through of CCA records... No return of papers tomorrow. Phew!

WELL, I'M GETTING REALLY FAT. That's a VERY bad thing...

I'm going to have intensive music today!!! D:

double dosage

2010-09-22T15:35:00.005+08:00

got back 2 papers. CHEM and HIGHER CHINESE... and these two are the two papers I'm most not confident in!!! D: BAD. Although, it's not a fail, but it's bad.

CHEMISTRY: Thankfully, an A for MCQ but paper 2 really pulled me down all the way. D: can't believe my class average is not even a pass mark! D:

well, it's a miracle for teachers in SNGS to mark so fast this round (: But... I don't think I want to get anymore back...

I really really think I'm 250% hopeless now and I ENVY those who really don't need to study so much but do much better than me... sighh why?

oh and thanks Jolene for that present... (: I really appreciate it.. although it feels like I'm eating a flower. :/ hah.

Am I really Hopeless? Is there really nothing I can do? omg, I really wanna know what I can do!!! It all seems useless!!! ): It's like totally... WHAT'S THE POINT OF STUDYING WHEN EVERYTHING TURNS OUT LIKE THAT!? It only makes one even more discouraged... that's all! I really feel like crying you know!!!!! Try so hard like also no use, what's the use of even trying!?

I hope it'll be better tomorrow, since it's EMATH, but you know... anything can happen...

2010-09-20T20:40:00.002+08:00

can't it be a good start? Why shatter them? Now, I know, I am simply hopeless, no matter how hard I try.

To even start, you don't even trust me!!!! How can I proceed?! Action speaks louder than words! You don't even show it! I don't get it and I'm confused!

You don't have to constantly SPELL OUT WORD FOR WORD, EVERY SINGLE WORD, to me, do you? You don't know me. You don't bother to hear MY SIDE of the story!

Stop asking, stop probing. and leave me alone. You keep saying and saying, you will make me very irritated and angry. So I beg you to stop. You're making me very upset!!

My exam pianos suck. I hate the muffled sound of one, and the overly clear sound of the other. It's in another 10 days time to dooms day... I can't wait to faint and die.

LOVE THE MUSIC

2010-09-19T22:17:00.003+08:00

Had dance musical rehersal and it was rather good. (:

Played with Marilyn for a while and it was fun! (:

I managed to plan my timetable for the whole time im between Os and now. And, it's PACKED. :/ D: A timetable from now till mid-Nov. wow.

AND... YAY! I FINISHED THE BOOK OF GENESIS!!! YAY! YAY! YAY! I love the story of Joseph... it was addictive :p heh. Jiayou BRP Jo. (:

In the night, I had Viola lesson!!! (: And Jessica Choi, my piano teacher, came over to go to Viola teacher's house together! It was fun! And the most encouraging thing my Viola teacher said that was, VERY NICE!!! Piano part and Viola part together sounds NICE! WOOHOO! Yay! 11 days to MEP OLevel Practical, that was the best thing to say (: I ha d such a great lesson today! And seeing my Viola and Piano teachers make friends was cute! ><

Guess I'm going to start mugging now :/ yeahh, feel kind of empty if I don't mug. :/

have to go to school TWICE tomorrow. There's technically NO SCHOOL for me for the next two days... BUT! Thanks to MEP. D: I have to go at 10.30am for studio practise and 3.30pm for MEP lesson. D: mann. sad... D: have to make TWO trips down and BACK D: gaahhhh D: D: D:

WILD WILD WET! WHEEEE! (:

2010-09-18T20:12:00.003+08:00

YAY YAY! Today was a great day! (:

Firstly, thanks Alicia's family for everything today! I had a wonderful morning to afternoon! (: thanks for lunch, admission fee, bubbletea, photo scan! EVERYTHING! Alicia chooey! Thanks for inviting me to join your family!!! I think your family is really cute and cool! I LOVE CLARA AND BASIL! Your siblings are unbelievably adorable!!!! :D haha.

Reached Wild Wild Wet at around 10.30am there about. And Alicia's silblings, Alicia and I headed to Shoik River! WHEE! haha. Then wave pool! THEN waterworks. The long slides were no kick after a while. heh. :p After that, Basil, Ail and I went to fat slide! HAHA, it's Oohlala. (: SO FUN!

D: ALICIA MADE ME GO SLIDE UP D: D: D: I was so scared D: Firstly, carrying the big, fat float was already so tough D: and tiring. Sitting on the fat float, don't know how many metres high up was even scarier. It totally TURNED my stomach D: I faced the front, and I SAW ALICIA'S SIDE OF THE FLOAT TIP DOWN! D: D: D: But in the end we went twice. HAHA.

LUNCH was next! Alicia's mummy bought us Subwayyyy!~ :D After eating, Alicia's entire family and I went to Oohlala! ~~~ SO FUNNN! They ordered a photograph! WHEE! (: After that and MANY MANY MANY rounds of slides, I went to shower! And the toilet was suprisingly CLEAN! and colourful! (: WHOOHOO! (: haha, and while waiting for my daddy, Alicia's mummy bought us bubble tea! (: yay. thanks again (; GEEEZZZ.

After that, I rushed to church and message was GREAT!

HAHA, Im kinda sunburn :p Im like RED. D:

Prelim: day TEN! THE END!

2010-09-17T14:24:00.005+08:00

omg, It's over! OVER FINALLY! I've been waiting for this day... WAITING WAITING WAITING! WHHHEEEE! It's finally HERE! WHEEEEEE! (: (: (: I'm so happy prelims are over! (:

But I'm weird. I feel kind of sad and empty. Cos there's no more prelims. D: Which also means that fat Os are coming even quicker! D: D: D:

Bought cutie's present today (:

I AM SO EXCITED FOR TOMORROW! YAY! Alicia chooey! I can't wait. (:

Today... AMATH PAPER TWO...
I supposed it was quite hard. I think. I could do the last part of the last question. and another part from another question. yeahh. ):
And everyone seemed to have very different answers from each other... so haha no one knows who is correct :p toot! haha.

Thanks Lynette and Liting for helping in my music audio recording!!! Although the heavy rain ruined it a bit D: but it's still very nice! yay.. thanks!

TO ALL MEP GIRLS: (Message from Ms Jane Foo) On Monday, come to school at 3.30pm for lessons as usual. Bring along your Audio Recording IN CDS so she can check if your CD can play. PLEASE BRING! DEADLINE of the Olevel Audio recording is on THURS 23 September 2010.

Have Chemistry tuition later and I don't feel like doing the homework D: haha, Alyssa the Alien is not doing. Should I do??? DON'T FEEL LIKE AT ALL!!! (:

well, I'm GLAD I could sleep quickly last night! (: AND I'M EVEN 'GLADER' heh, that I manage to do my Quiet Time everynight!!! WHOOHOO! :D AND I LOVE STORMIE OMARTIN'S BOOK!!! Okay, I feel like reading it now.

Oh no. I need to catch up with BRP Joanney.... D:

oh yeah whatever, you're smart, I'm dumb. stop emphasising that fact.

the day before temporary freedom

2010-09-16T13:06:00.004+08:00

no school today, and it's so WOW. (:
woken up by Janice's morning call. :p TWICE. haha. :p

Im going to try to do another revision for AMATH! And if I ever finish, that would be THIRD ROUND! whoohoo! BUt I doubt I can la. heh. :p

10 for now, and 7 is going to be the magic number by that time. I hope I can :/ :/ :/

YAY! I CAN'T WAIT FOR SATURDAY!!!!!!!!!! WWW with ALICIA! AWESOME YOUTH SERVICE!!! What can be more exciting????? omg, can hardly wait.. (: (: lalala.

My Piano teacher, JESSICA CHOI!!! Asked me just now, why my Viola wasn't called lala. HAHA, omg, she's funny. I LOVE VIOVIO, VIOLA TEACHER, PIANO TEACHER! I THINK THEY ARE SO COOL! Viola teacher has more than 4 fat cats! OMG, they are funny and cute. When I play my instrument, HAHA, they have a gathering round! and join in with their 'CHOIR' of m-e-o-w-s. They jump from cupboards, and crawl around my legs. HAHA omg CUTE ttm!!! ><

that reminds me... maybe I should give my Piano a name too! (:

Going to study and practise AMATH, before I bring my naughty sissy out for lunch (:

and JANICE CHUA! CALL YOUR TUTOR! YOU BETTER COME ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!! And you're sleeping now right? YOU FELL ASLEEP AGAIN!?

omgg, HAHA, I suddenly thought of that naked man question in the BIOLOGY PRELIM paper. 0.0 what a question!!! What if a man stood 'unclothed' in winter, account for the temperature in the hand and feet regions. like WHAT right! TOOT...

eh? Why am I thinking of BIO? CUT IT OUT! AMATH TIME! BYEEEEE!

Prelim: day NINE

2010-09-15T10:27:00.004+08:00

omg it's gonna end!!! Am I going to miss it? Hmmm.. maybe. :p

and I'm so glad I could sleep yesterday (: too tired I guess. :p AND I DID QT for the whole week so far!!! YAY! Accomplishment. (:

TODAY I MARK THE END OF SECOND ROUND OF REVISION FOR FAT Os!

ELIT PAPER: text-- TKAM! TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD!

Yesterday, I planned to read whole text once through again. But I realised I totally couldn't! After 4 hours, I only read 80 pages (9 chapters) out of 287 pages (31 Chapters)... I decided to stop reading. No choice... resorted to Spark's Notes for SUMMARY ONLY! In case I forgot some nitty gritty. :p heh.

TOOTS lorh. I studied so hard on HYPOCRISY. DIDN'T COME OUT D: boohoo. But oh well, mockingbird theme came out. And did the essay over the passage-based. :p which I didn't expect to be the case... :p

Unseen...HAHA, I wanted to do the POETRY! But I was scared as it would be my first time doing a poetry in like what 2 years plus plus?! So resorted to prose. heh. The first question was quite straight-forward I guess. But the second question was quite hard...

Thanks Alicia's mummy who fetched me home! (:

AMATH mugging for two days... tomorrow no school for me! WHOOTIES! (:

Prelim: day EIGHT

2010-09-14T12:53:00.004+08:00

yay prelim season is going to end soon!!! I'm so happy.

took slightly long to sleep yesterday AGAIN, but thankfully it wasn't as long as on the previous day D: and yep, thanks Jessica for offering to call me at 4.43am to wake me up to study!!! HAHA.

BIOLOGY paper today...

Paper ONE, I felt was rather easy and I had half the whole time to check. I was like, eh? Did I miss out pages? But haha, yeah, no. But it was ONLY paper ONE.

JOLENE TAN totally AGITATED ME IN BETWEEN THE PAPERS. thanks ah JO TAN. You and your wet palms!!!!!!!!!! GRRRR! and JOEY and SAMANTHA just LAUGHED. tsky.

Paper TWO, omg. It was quite hard, I felt... It was so tiring also!!! Urgh, I was like quickly end quickly end, when I was already hard pressed for time to finish writing! I tried to write in my ever neatest handwriting, but it only lasted for a short while... heh. Questions were weird and tricky. blehheh. I wanna do well for BIO D: D: D: pleasepleaseplease...

ENGLISH LITERATURE TMR. And I'm only starting NOW. heh. But oh well, I marked my bookie already... (: looks NICE with numerous post-it stuff sticking out of it. (: (: (:

well, I'm skipping lunch. And I'm having gastric but I don't feel like eating!!!!!

I'm so tired today... D: I probably PROBABLY will be able to sleep faster today then. (: hope hope hope.... :/

2 more PRELIM PAPERS TO GO! Quickly finish!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm SO SICK OF STUDYING ALREADY. omg.

Prelim: day SEVEN

2010-09-13T14:15:00.002+08:00

It's real bad. and I'm so tired of this. I took nearly 3 hours to sleep. Tried to go to bed early, but what's the use?!

eyes were super bulgy and swolleny in the morning. thanks to that la. Thankfully, I had energy to do the papers...and I thank God for that.

AMATH paper one: okay I guess, but I'm so pissed Binomial didn't come out when I spent most time on that. and TRIGO-- so little came out. \

English paper 2: Hard, very hard and everthing, really EVERY QUESTION was like in your own words, express fully, what do you think it meant, omg, It's so hard. :/

Gonna mug hard for BIO now. and I'm really VERY VERY tired already. sighh. Seriously, I'm gonna pray hard this ends.
did my QT yesterday (:

start of crazy week

2010-09-12T18:48:00.002+08:00

marking the start of another crazy week and I can't wait for it to finish. seriously. really can't wait.

from tomorrow...
43 days to BIG Os
64 days to END of Os

can't wait till the 65th day from now. I'm so tired already!!!

mug BIO. mug AMATH. mug ELIT. mugmugmugmug Im a mugger.
going to pracitise self-discipline. so bye Commy for now.

still can't stop thinking...

o.o

2010-09-10T12:10:00.003+08:00

Had insomnia the whole night, and it seems like the worst insomnia I had ever had. :/ and now I'm so tired. Stupidy eyes have been swollen since Tuesday. :/

Well, I can say, I'm QUITE satisfied with my BIOLOGY revision. 6 more chapters left for prelims on Tuesday. AMATH, revision is kinda bad. So I hope I can do poads of Amath today... going to try to finish most of amath revision by today.

It seems to me that I can only do THE MOST, 3 rounds of revision before Os ): and that's not my aim! I want at least FOUR D:

remember the last time when we counted 3 hundred over days to big Os? 200 over? 100 over? 90? And now, it's HALF OF 90! Yeah, 45 more days! Almost a month left!? Just look how time flies... unbelievable. But I really can't wait for Olevels to end. Can't wait to end the 'misery' and 'suffering' D:

still thinking about it and it's really not easy to NOT think of it

2010-09-09T10:12:00.001+08:00

stop it will you

it's Tuesday

2010-09-07T13:30:00.006+08:00

I think I can't finish my MACS fries already. They suddenly taste yucky. :/

BIO and AMATH day again. Having 'loads of fun'.

can't wait for prelims to end! Olevels, EVEN BETTER. I really feel like dreaming about the end of Os. HAHA.

YAY YAY YAY! Won Spyanney in bathing competition! (: Next competitor is probably my sis. haha.

I know you are trying not to stress me about that / because of that. But you know, it's already in me, and already a fact that I view going there to be my aim too. I don't know why, but when she got in, I know it's great news for her. But why? I didn't feel happy. she seems to be good in almost everything. It's stressful. very. what if I can't, I bet you will be disappointed in me. I mean, I'm sure you will feel that way although you tell me you won't. sry but I'm not blaming you for anything. it's just me. especially when I see that envelope thing, and when I read those words; and on your table, I saw mine. You know, it's really demoralizing. I know God has a perfect plan for me. but there's that feeling still... I can't help it.

boohoo

2010-09-06T12:28:00.002+08:00

Here's marking thee start of mugger week. oh well, this is it... most dreaded week.

but just thinking of next week, and the week AFTER next, makes me go CRAZY in different ways. :p

BIO and AMATH. My highlights of the week. how wonderful... (:

oh yesterday, we had Youth Music Ministry outing at Joanne's castle! (: I felt it was great bonding. (: yay. Thanks Joanne and Mr Chow (Chow-Sir) for hosting (:

VIOVIO lesson later. ): bye. It's mugger day.

days of short-term freedom

2010-09-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

well, I've got freedom! Today... sadly, is my last no-study day... but tomorrow, it won't be so heavy as I'm only studying in the morning, afternoon and night. eh wait, isn't that every part of the day? oh but fewer hours.. very much fewer (: Due to the Youth Music Ministry outing at Joanney Spyanney's house, I mean castle.

Yay! My long awaited day has arrived (today) and it's over so fast... ): oh well, but this is time. Time flies... well, next Saturday shall be my next motivation. At least, there is really something I look forward so much to! (:

So sad to start heave and intensive mugging soon on Monday.. ): aiya... I'm really thinking of the time when Os end. Oh mann, HEAVENLY!!! I really want to do SO MANY THINGS THEN!!! Can't wait! :p

OHOH!!! Happy Birthday Joanney Spyanney! Have a Blessed '21st' *coughs*, birthday!!! Once again, God bless!!! (:

omg, LOVE playing Keyboard and whorshiping God! It's sad that I'm going to pull myself out soon D: well, credit goes to Olevels AGAIN D:

OHOH!!! Happy Birthday dear VIOVIO! And omg, it's celebration took up a lot of my energy lorh! okay, the 'celebration' is actually my Viola lesson luh. haha! oh well, afterall, you are my Baby! (: so... haiya. (:

Prelim: day SIX

2010-09-03T12:06:00.004+08:00

omg I'M SO HAPPY. That it's OVER! omg, huess what... GEOG's OVER!!! WHOOTS! (:

Thanks Alicia, for waking me up yesterday, although it was a failure as when you woke me up at 7am, I fell asleep after lazing in bed for an hour. and Jerked out of bed the next hour. ANd today... thanks alicia... for waking me up at 5am so I can revise my GEOGY!

Geogy test was kinda dumb ): I studied so hard for all four themes, as Mrs Sherwood said that they could like mix the themes and blahhy, but they DIDN'T!!! So, I kind of studied HARD VERY HARD I MEAN, for 2 themes, fer nuthin'. D:

I LOVE JANICE! WHOOHOO! (: Thanks SO MUCH JANICE!!! You are like my motivation, once again! (: And studying would not have been 'so fun' with you... oh mann, we should really do this for Olevels!!! (: and the week after Sept hols... haha. and I love bathing competition!!! haha, because I won. heh. no laaa.. only 2 minutes faster. :p

but aiya, IT'S OVER! WHOOHOO! I'm going to break for 2 days. (: mann, but the week after hols would be BAD. VERY BAD. AMATH, BIO, LIT! AHHH! okay. stop thinking. keep living...

and haha, I was detached from Computer life for 2 days!!! HAHA (:

got my report book today... omg, I deproved D: but maybe it's forgivable... as it's like big fat chapters and not small tests... oh well. I'm BLEH. haha, Lilan lao shi, was like 还好! omg, but she should be saying 烂掉! oh well again, she's nice... (: the weirdest thing is... My Humanities are like good. 0.0 like so 0.0. and my Math and sciences dipped a little. Bio's my best subject but it's a Band THREE although it's an A D: boooooo! D:

Chemistry tuition later... D: siannzzzz.

lunched with Alicia just now, okay, maybe had breakfast, at Pasta Mania. and kind of shopped for something, but shopping trip failed. :/ heh.

well, I feel empty now... suddenly like nothing to mug today. haha. I shall go practise for sat's worship! bye!

mann, I'm FREE! whoa-oa-oa-oah!

lala

2010-09-01T20:34:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I want to thank Joanney for waking me up! THANKS YOU JOANNE!

Sat at my table for a million of hours :/ blehh. thanks to Geography... :/

Next, I want to say... I LOVE JANICE CHUA!!! WHOOHOO! She's my supreb study partner! And it really motivates me... thanks Janice! (: (: (:

okay. Im going back to mug Geog. bye.

oh omg, haha St nicks is merging with Cat High and SCGS. :o IP. anyway, it doesn't affect my cohort. :p

happy teachers' day... (:

2010-08-31T11:09:00.003+08:00

Teachers' day celebration was rather boring in my school though, sad to say... :p
It was very hot as everyone was under the scorching sun... ):
Oh and my cohort had to wear this green cohort tee, which to me, is very cool (: yay! It's probably the best school tee I've ever had. (:
Yup and after the celebration, our cohort took cohort pics! I think it's for graduation if Im not wrong... and THANKFULLY, everyone would appear small in the picture, omg, I have a pimple. I hate PIMPLE! ): D:

Lunched with Jo after giving a few teachers teachers' day presents. haha, I only gave three teachers, unlike last year, which I gave ALL. It's just that I had no time to buy presents fro every teacher... haha. I had a rather hard time finding Mrs Brenda Tan D: and entering the staff room to give Lilan lao shi her's. haha.

omg, I'm suddenly in love with OKLAHOMA songs, and Joy Chou's songs too! AH! Okay, I need to establish love with Geography now. bye.

Love in the making with trees and natural vegetation, rivers, coasts, etc.

can't wait for the weekends to come!!!! (: \

okay... I'm going to Trust God, I'm going to try to lean on Him! I AM, I AM!!!

Prelim: day FIVE

2010-08-30T11:42:00.002+08:00

actually, the day os not over yet, as I still have to go back to school at 2.30pm for my 2nd and 3rd paper -- MUSIC.

Math paper was okay. But I was feeling so uncomfortable then. and the teacher didn't give us enough time to write our names on all the eight pieces of paper! ): and it added to my uneasiness. omg and I was SO tired. never before was I so tired during an exam. and it was not like I slept very late last night ): sighh

I just hope I will have alertness and energy to do the LISTENING paper later during MEP... :/

oh well. pray.

Prelim: day FOUR

2010-08-27T15:49:00.004+08:00

English paper ONE was okayy. I finished like ON THE DOT. I wrote a narrative! omg, this is only the second time I wrote a narrative for a test in 2 years!!! I miss discurssive and argumentative essays... ): but, oh well, narrative is SUPPOSEDLY easier to score... :/
Situational writing was a speech... and I spent the longest time yesterday studying for letter... :p

Chinese paper TWO was so hard! I barely had time to finish too! But at least I finished 3 minutes before the time was up. Phew. I know I won't do well for this paper anyway... :/

oh well... tomorrow's Saturday and I'm SO GLAD! (: okay I'm getting slightly high now. hahaha.

Lunched with Jo and Huai Tian at Pizza Hut... Gave HT a pizza, cos it was TOO FILLING! D:

okay BYE. I'm going to start mugging NOW.

EGEOG, MATH and MEP next week. D: and the only thing I like about prelis is that I can go home RIGHT AFTER THAT! WHOOTS! that's the only thing btw. okay MAYBE it's slightly fun. SLIGHTLY. ONLY. ( I mean like taking the papers. papers after papers. ) and going toilet before and after every single paper. paranoia of how the stationaries are arranged for most convenient 'picking up' during the exam!

Prelim: day TWO and THREE

2010-08-26T13:32:00.002+08:00

Day TWO:
Higher Chinese paper one and Social Studies... I think the papers were rather fine (:

Day THREE:
CHEMISTRY paper one and two...
Paper one was quite okay, I felt... and as soon as I was about to gain a teeny weenie bit of confidence in CHEM, paper two totally KILLED me. omg. It was so hard... ): I wanted to cry when I was doing it. but thankfully I didn't as I won't even have time to wipe my tears!!! I finished like 3 minutes before the time was up. And that included many questions in which I ANYHOW DO! mann, I'm really very dead... ): I had a VERY HARD time attaching all my papers together. My staple JUST COULDN'T staple the papers together!! Okay, that seriously shows how THICK and FAT the Chemistry paper was :/ I stapled like more than 10 times. REALLY! And my fingers nearly bled... :p

After the paper ended, a few of my classmates cried ): ahh, I felt like crying after seeing them cry!!! D: but I didn't okay! ahh I HATE CHEM! okay maybe I HATE ST NICKS CHEM!!!! I wonder why Chem is always a killer since the beginning of the year... I'm like hopeless for Chem already.. ):

Lunched with Alicia bestie at J8. (:

can't stop thinking of Chem paper though D:

tomorrow... English paper ONE and Higher Chinese paper TWO. at least there isn't much to study... so at least I can sleep a little earlier and break a little longer. Like now!!! (: haha.

eeyer... stupid chem test ): D:

and thanks Joanne

Prelim: day ONE

2010-08-24T13:40:00.002+08:00

elit paper was quite okay I guess. omg, I took like 15 minutes choosing the essay question!!! Cos both seemed fun to do haha. and I was so stupid to write out an overview for BOTH essays when we only needed to do one. :p but thankfully I had time to finish.

Math was okay too I guess...

gahh SS tmr! and there is so much to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! chinese paper one tmr too ):

2010-08-23T19:45:00.002+08:00

I had always thought you understood me. I always thought that. But I was wrong.
You totally shouldn't have said those comments! You know I'm already trying my best to balance school-work-church life! How could you say that!!! You know it really hurts A LOT?

I cried the whole night, and thought for a long while. But I still feel I did nothing wrong! I am sure that my decision is correct! I am very sure!

Stop it! Stop making me feel so down and easily aggitated! I really hate it!

):

2010-08-22T19:18:00.003+08:00

omg, I'm super stress. It's indescribable. ah. feel like DYING!!!!!!!!!!!! Prelims are in 2 short days time!!! Time is passing so quickly. I know I must manage my time, I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW! But it's easier said than done. really. Or rather, there is just too many things to do, so many things that are important, that I can't manage all of them. sighh.

I know, I must trust in You. I know, I must keep praying. I know, I must keep believing. I know, You are always there for me. I know, You are the God of all the earth. But I need THAT filling. THAT assurance...

God, I need your help. I need the strength. please...?

ENGLISH OLEVEL ORAL

2010-08-20T22:01:00.004+08:00

status: COMPLETED
!!! YAY !!!

The topic was about marriage. OMG, my cousin, Sophia was like saying during tuition," If only Marriage comes out... I can say SO MUCH!" I was like," Huh? A lot meh?" omg, and it really did come out for me!!! and her sis, SARAH FANGS! haha. :p

omg, I had headache the whole day today, even now. ): however, I'm thankful that the ehadache went away during my oral exam! (: and I'm thankful I didn't hiccup or sneeze (btw, I'm sneezing now) HAHA. At least, all of them are happening NOW and not THEN. hah.

I was super scared in the holding room. omg, my veins popped out! LOL! I prayed with Alicia Ho (another class though) and kept praying on my own self too!!! And it was kind of the first time, I really tried very hard to place my faith and trust in the Lord and try intently to keep myself CALM. But it was hard... but I DID IT! (I think...) :p At least I wasn't scared when I walked into the prep/oral exam room! (: that's really great! That fearful feeling just dissolved! (: Thank God! (:

Reading Aloud part was good. Picture was okayy. But the starting question was rather unusual though,"what is the atmosphere of the place?" not the conventional though, HAHA. And the weirdest thing is that the two examinners kept laughing at what I said!!! OMG. They laughed as if they were about to fall off the chair!? (oh btw, my examiners are a female, a man who is Indian-Eurasian. and they are rather friendly and nice) Conversation... first question was like," Tell me a time when you were indecisive about something." I talked about my Prom dress shopping and the examiners were like," PROM DRESS!!!! So fast!? When's your prom???" omg, dramatic reaction!~ haha, I was kind of shocked. :p second question was SUPER hard lorh... I couldn't really answer ): "What's the disadvantage of being indecisive?" omg, I couldn't talk much ): boohoo. thankfully the examiner said," okay nevermind, next question is nowadays teens don't believe in marriage, what's your view on this?" it was quite easy to talk, I think. But I said I disagreed to an extent, and blah. and said I was not against marriage and stuff along the line. and I said I loved children and something that made the examiners laugh until they couldn't stop. omg. quite scary. now I'm thinking... should I have said that? omg. weird.

haha, after oral, I waited for Jo and Weitian in class, as we were the last three, and decided to meet in class after oral. (: omg, Jo was super high. High adrenaline level. She skipped in like a monkey! haha. I saw her running in from afar... haha, funny sight :p (: And guess what? The indecisive topic, ALL THREE OF US TALKED ABOUT PROM DRESS! HAHA, and when Jo talked about it, the examiner was like," The previous student also talked about Prom dress!" and at weitian's turn, the examiners kinda like 'slam' the tables and laughed and said," HAHAHA! Why is everybody talking about Prom dress! HAHA, 2 students before you also talked about it!!!" HAHA, omg funny. :p

I'm SUPER TIRED now. ): I don't know but I think I'm gonna fall sick ): NOOO!!! I hope I don't as prelims are coming!!! ): omg, PRELIMS! It's making me really stress :/ gahhda!

ohno! I haven't done a lot of things!!! church stuff, school stuff, prelims stuff, OTHER STUFF! AHH! Stress TTM!???!!

D: D:

2010-08-19T16:20:00.002+08:00

tomorrow... IS DOOMS DAY. D: horrid disastrous catastrophic DOOMS day. D: AH! I'm DRAEDING it SOO BADLY D:

I bet I will not be able to stop practising oral today. ): But I still need to study for CHEM, SS, MATH, ELIT. okay DIE. ):

CAN'T STOP THINKING D: D: D: althuogh I really want to STOP. STOP STOP! omg, It's OLEVELS. OLEVELS... urgh. I'm thinking what I should eat before orals for lunch tomorrow. and omg, what if I feel like sneezing during oral? and what if I suddenly hic-cup? OMG OMG!!! HOW HOW?!!! D: what if I can't stop shaking as in shivering of FEAR? omg. stop thinking HEIDI TAN.

the worst thing is that I'm the last few students! Will the examiner feel very siann? omg, what if I faint? AAAAHHHH!!!!!!

I shall deviate.

today, a BIG FAT moth or whatever butterfly flew into the classroom!!! OMG. I think it was at my table. All the girls sitting at the front few rows jumped and slid out of their chairs instantaneously. (it was like a kallang wave-- heh :p)omg, it was so BIG. SUPER BIGGG. o_O

oh and it's very windy sitting under the fan, in the front few rows... feels really different when I sat right at the back though. :p AND The best thing is that... I don't get a million bites a day!!! (sitting at the back ):)

lunched with Jo and Tian... they ate so slow. ):

omg, thinking again!

ENG ORAL D: is coming

2010-08-18T20:50:00.003+08:00

O-M-G!!! I'm very very very very scared... :/ I really can't describe the fear... really... ): I'm very scared for CONVERSATION! I hate to converse with EXAMINERS! Intimidating ones... ): AHH!

Practised oral just now for 2.5 hours! And I really feel so unprepared! I don't know why!!!! I hate conversation!!! ): I DREAMT OF MY ORAL PICTURE! OMG. But of course, I don't know if it will be THAT picture or not... :/ I dreamt of like prize presentation for some sports event... omg, I hope it won't come out... :x gahh ):

Can't study properly... because I'm thinking a lot on English Oral... ): ): ): ahh!!! ): ORAL IN 2 DAYS!!! ): ): ):

my class -- 5 people are having oral tomorrow. Time really flies. I feel scared for them. I mean not that they are not good. But because mine's coming after theirs too! AND I THINK I CAN FEEL WHAT THEY ARE FEELING NOW!!! AND IT'S THAT FEELING NOW! D: GAH! D: D: D:

I shall pray for peace... God, please help me!!!

:O

2010-08-17T15:51:00.002+08:00

AHH! THAT stupid LIZARD!!! I'm like still traumatised!!!
While Jolene and Huai Tian sat around my desk to practise oral, something jumped out from under my desk and crawled up my pinafore! omg, Joey and Samantha screamed! JOey was champion at that. OMG, it was a lizard! I think I went crazy at that moment... :p I washed my wallet and pinafore!!! YUCKS!!! A HATE LIZARDS! It was like quite big, I think... according to Jadine's judgement... AHH! SCARY! Horror of horros! D:

We moved into prelims sitting arrangement already ): no more sitting beside Jolene and ShiYi ): but Joleney is still behind me. irritating me. kicking my chair. -_- sitting a gap next to Shermae and Samantha. funny peeps (: OH MANN! FRIDAY IS OLEVEL ORAL! AHH!!! okay, I'm very very very very scared. super scared. I hate facing those intimidating examiners... ): ahhh. ): ): ):

PRELIMS are NEXT WEEK. and I AM SO SCARED TOO. D: VERY.

Math tuition soon... after a looongg while. very long, like 2 months? And I'm so gonna die, because I didn't do much of HER homework. ): die die die... D:

okay bye. need to wash away lizard scent.

Eliot

2010-08-15T15:25:00.002+08:00

by the way, Eliot is the name of a 6 year old child, who is special.

today, something really scary happened. Eliot went missing during Sunday School. He ran out of the church to the main road area. There was a massive search for Eliot, many youths even rendered their help to find Eliot. Tiara, Mayann, Megan and I searched the hills above the church, but in the end, we could not find him.

And during the search, I was praying so hard, that God will keep Eliot save and bring him back to his parents...

Alas, Eliot was found in a house with a friendly family, who saw Eliot board a bus and got chased down by the bus driver. And so she kindly brought him home and took care of him while she called the police.

Tian Yi and Mathieu saw the police going into the house and found Eliot.

Mann, it was such a eventful morning. But nevertheless, I thank God for keeping Eliot safe and bringing him back to his worried parents safely.

feel really really drained though. :/

have Viola and piano lesson later... so siann. ):

:/ numbers

2010-08-14T22:30:00.003+08:00

10 days to PRELIMS
34 days to END OF PRELIMS
47 days to HIGHER MUSIC and PERFORMING MAJOR PRACTICAL OLEVEL EXAM
72 days to BIG FAT Os
93 days to END OF BIG FAT Os

it's soon, so soon.
and I'm already very, very tired.

why was I crumbling down? why were they stuff falling onto me?

time's just passing too quickly

2010-08-13T17:11:00.004+08:00

AHH! It's going to be prelims soon! AND THEN OLEVELS!!! It's too soon. I think I want more time... :/ OLEVEL ENGLISH ORAL is so soon! NEXT WEEK!? HORROR HORROR... :/
Mann, I'm really scared... ):
TODAY is the official end of REVISION TESTS. What a great ending, with a BIOLOGY test (this is not sarcastic ah) (: haha
I REALLY REALLY freak out when those teachers come to say about how soon our prelims are and how olevels are coming soon too! AH! :o D:
urghsm so brain washed with all the testssss! and now! Finally, at least for a while, it's 'OVER'! whoots.
other than tuition today, I'M SO GOONNA PLAYYY. as in not study. heh. :p

thanks JANICE! for calling me up at 5.17am to wake me up to study BIOLOGY todayy!!! haha, but I managed to finish the studying part after 17 minutes, heh, so I went back to sleep in the end. :p hahahaha. But oh well, I'm soo glad it's over (:

but what's next... PRELIMS!!!!!!!!

yay yay yay yay!!! Can't wait for youth service tomorrowwww! WHOOHOO!

I have weird and unusual desires...
1. I wish there was only BIOLOGY to study in my life (:
2. I wish CHEMISTRY had only bonding and Qualitative analysis
3. I wish GEOG had only physical geog.

you are so mean...

my shorts became so loose that it nearly fell off when I was walking! omg, I used to fit perfectly in it 5 months ago!?