I really wish for a female figure in my life who truly understands me. Actually not any other female figure. But a mother who genuinely cares. It has been so long, but she doesn't understand my sis and I at all! She thinks we like others over her, she thinks we are not helping her genuinely and instead creating chaos, she thinks her life is so hard cos no one wants to help her when we all actually want to. I don't understand! Why does she always think so illly of my sis and I! It feels like there's no one I can turn to in my family.. Well, everyone thinks my family is perfect, it's great, a happy family. Well ive been trying to convince myself that it is! But no! I can't! It's not a happy family! It's a mere facade!!! It's all FAKE!
I don't know you anymore mummy. I wish I can stay away from you for a while and so I can give u and myself to think abt why u are doing this and how I shld face u. Though sometimes you are not scolding me but u are scolding Kristel, it hurts okay! It hurts to see the family atmosphere being so so sucky becos of u being angry at suer trivial things and scolding and beating everyone. I just don't like it.
It's not like me to say this but, I really wish I can get married soon and I'm sure I won't do this to my child...
Life is a bed of thorns || 2:24 PM
