PW totally is my favourite! :) missing PW already.. :P
My results for promotional exams really suck.. :( and it really makes me wonder if im really stupid or not.. I studied so so hard for it! Slping at 2am and waking at 4am to revise in case I forget the info.everything just gone right down the drain.. Am I stupid?
Really starting to consider if medicine is the path I want to go. Whether it is the path that is suitable for me.. Should I stop dreaming? Do I still stand a chance? Do I want to work so hard? Im just starting to really question myself.. Sigh. Thinking of alternatives though :/ recently, I went for a medical immersion camp at nanyang poly and it was so interesting! It kinda made me still wanna go into medicine... :( haha oh well.
I feel my Christian life is kind of stagnant. I don't know exactly why.. I'm just really frustrated with this fact. It's like everyone is growing, everyone is experiencing more from God, receiving more from Him, continually getting blessed from Him... But I'm not. I just feel upset and I wonder why.. I don't like it when im always lagging. Well it seems like I'm always lagging in everything! Am I that of a loser? I mean, I'm glad to see many of my friends in church growing. It's good! It really is! But I just feel.. Sad that I'm not really growing although I really do want to. I don't know but I'm starting to enter the feeling of doubt. I wonder if God really hears my prayers. I wonder if He really sees me. When I worship him, sometimes I wonder why I'm clapping hands during praise songs and why I'm lifting my hands up during worship songs. Like why must I or do I or do ppl do that.. Just feel really disillusionised now..
Soccer. I hate my shin, ankle, leg or whatever. I have getting Injured. I want to play in the coming matches but how am I to play with a sprained ankle! What's wrong with me seriously!! :( just really angry with myself! I wanna be a guy on the field. But why do I appear to be like a gymnast on the field!!!?? I hate it. I hate myself for that.
Anyway, right now I've got to study really hard do I won't lag in school or anything.
