My life now, is really tough. Okay I never expected that JC life would be so tough! Secondary school life was already a killer.. And now, JC... JUST KILL ME! CCA, school work, Project Work, Tests, CTs, meeting expectations, nonsense... all take up SO MUCH of my time. School has never ended so late before.. school had never felt so tiring before and I have NEVER dreaded school this much!! Everything just changed. Everyone changed too.
School workload is so much! It's just overwhelming.. But okay, maybe I've been lazy.. I didn't revise everyday's work like everyday. sigh I guess that's my aim and my vow to try to revise everyday's lessons by that single day.. I suppose it will really help me in my understanding and hw.. sigh. Life is tough, living is even harder.
CCA, soccer, is super fun! And it is no doubt at all that I LOVE soccer! However, something just seems wrong in my soccer team. I don't know but there's just something. Maybe Mr Lee's right... there's no JOY in the team.. as in everyone's so sad. I guess that's true. Especially after EXCO positions came out. The atmosphere just SUCKS! BUt oh well, I believe when everyone tries, things will gradually get better... OH MAN and guess what... I'm a QM AGAIN!!! D: GAHHAHA. LIAZRD INFESTED STOREROOM HERE I COME D: *cringe* ewwww.. hahah but OH WELL. (:
Friends.. well that is something I really start to question when I enter JC. I'm really thankful though that Alicia is in the same school as me and we are in the same CCA! But.. I just feel that something's lacking between us now. I don't know but I feel quite sad about it. ):
My classmates, is not how it used to be in sec school! It just feels that everyone is so fake and I can't seem to rely and really trust anyone! No one seems to be really interested in what anyone's going through and no one seems to CARE A SINGLE BIT for anyone. okay maybe a teeny weeny bit. I don't know but this really sucks! I really hope my friends in class will bond more and get closer... ): It has already been half a year.. time flies.. but I feel that my relationship with my friends are getting further apart and more distant and things aren't really going right.. I really miss Secondary school... TO BITS!! D: Can't I just retain.. seriously...
Everyone is so competitive, everyone is SO smart in TJC. It sucks when you are dumb and I just feel that I am so. But oh well.. I'm trying to be smart. haha
TOOP, some overseas outreach programme I'm in. I feel it's really rather demanding.. the teachers keep scolding us every session... and sometimes I really wonder if joining it is the right choice... but well I believe at the final destination, I would feel it is (: Just trying to press on... and I just hope for now that I won't get kicked out due to academic requirements..
JC life.. frankly speaking, I don't enjoy it. CCA is about the only thing I look forward to. (I think) And this is the only phase in my life so far that I'm DREADING school so much... ): the loneliness, sadness, stress, helplessness is just too overwhelming and strangling. You can't understand... and the guys are annoying.
JCTs are just over and I know for sure, I can't slack a single bit when the term reopens. Infact, I have to work even harder than before as things are just going to be harder each day and I just have to learn to cope with it. Sigh..
God, I pray that You strengthen me both mentally and physically. I really pray for SUPERNATURAL strength...
JCTs:
They were a killer.
GP: OKay I can't say much about this as I don't really have any idea how this is going to be marked.. but essay was fun I guess.. (:
Geog: which was after GP on the same day was TIRING! Brain was fried TOTALLY! Fell sick during the paper and this sucked! Really felt so sucky after this paper as I studied SO EXTREMELY HARD for Geog like I studied 3 TIMES THOROUGHLY! But the essay part was just SCREWED TTM!!! OH well, this is life, isn't it?
Chem: One word -- FAILURE. YES IT'S A TOTAL FAIL PAPER! Everyone was stunned after the paper. anw, I don't expect anything from this paper.. not even a pass or a sub-pass. MY CHEM SUCKS YOU SEE! D:
Biology: This paper was really fun I'd say! (: At least I enjoyed doing the paper (: And I could understand all of the questions and at least a rough gist to answering them. (: studied so hard for this paper too...
Math: I was really freaking out totally the day before as I had never felt so under-prepared for this paper in my whole life! Math was something I had never really worried about but now... OMG. But the paper was quite fun (: and yeah I felt I enjoyed doing the paper too (: haha oh well, i'll just wait and see my results.
SERIOUSLY, I have NO IDEA AT ALL about what my results wil turn out to be! (except chem, sure U grade) This is my first exam in JC and woah it was a killer in general. I wonder what the next few exams will be like. And I wonder also what is the use of setting such a tough paper in which NO ONE knows how to do. It's like pointless isn't it!? It only brings down a person's self-esteem! What to do... WELCOME TO TJC.
I pray for a good term! At least a good start please! TERM 3!! Here I come (tomorrow) :/ schhhhhhh ):
