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Math exam...

Date : Friday, October 3, 2008

I just came back from school... I am so upset... Mathematics... I really wished to get a 90 above... now I am striking it out, even an 80! Might be striked out too... Paper one was disastrious! There was not enough time! I had mental block! I panicked! Okay, there was only 15 more minutes then in this one hour paper and I still left 2 questions and some others that I left blank in front.. I forgot the pythagoras' theorem formula! I could not focus and do a simple algebriac sum! I left 4 questions BLANK! 13 marks GONE! I cried after the first paper... I was really, really, upset and I hate myself for this... Thanks Esther for your comfort and willingness to revise with me some formula on the way from the toilet... Next, the second paper... easier than the first though... I told myself that I must get full marks to pull my other mark up then... The first few questions were quite easy... I was feeling better... However, the last graph question came... FIXED CHARGE?! and something else... what is THAT!? I was blank again... my I spent 50 min on two graphs... One I know is correct, the other I know is wrong... Many more marks gone... I am feeling very upset... thanks dad for understanding me, and comforting me in the car... thanks Sharon for your prayer for me before my second paper, thanks Alicia Choo for you card and comfort, thanks Janice Lee for coming to me, thanks Sophia for your tissue (hehe), and to everyone else who comforted me... I am sorry I gave you a shock.. But.. I just can't stop thinking about it... i can't stop hating myself for this stupid mental block! I can't stop thinking on how manymarks I would lose! I don't want to get back this Math paper... I don't want it to pull down my 83 % for the other terms... (i know it will though) I am utterly upset, utterly dissapointed with myself, I tinge of hatred that I got this mental block on such familiar questions... It is all over, I need to get over it fast. Mathematics... the thought of doing well and scoring high is gone... it is all gone...

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